This conversation is timely...tonight is the twice a year photo op with the old man. He was a total douche and waited till the last *possible* second again to make the plans...can I *be* less special please, really, I love it!(Entourage has given me such a "douche" or "douchebag" habit...it's like college, except I'm not the one giving the feminist lecture this time.) If only calling someone a douchebag stopped this conversation. But, alas... but unlike Sunil, I'm trying to make peace with a relationship that plagues me like a dead socket rather than trying to renegotiate a living organism. I tried; he wasn't having it.(I wish I could have the time back I wasted..it's easier this way. A couple times a year, I listen to Everclear songs and "Cat's in The Cradle" and cry...it still feels less stupid than whipping out the old I-statements to somebody who doesn't give a fuck.)

Nothing stupid about Everclear and Chapin. They've written that particular pain very clearly.

I think "Father of Mine" is brilliant, btw. It's such a trip when somebody talking about their experience nails the feelings enough that he could be talking about yours.ETA: I didn't mean stupid, exactly...just sometimes that makes me feel like the put-upon teen that got a little too into singing along with "Everybody Hurts" You know.

For the record, Apple Fritter Timbits are disappointing as they have no apple filling. Fortunately, they guy who sold me the box o' ten gave me 7 sour cream and 5 lame apple fritter.

I feel like he had my back.

I think "Father of Mine" is brilliant, btw. It's such a trip when somebody talking about their experience nails the feelings enough that he could be talking about yours

I love Everclear, and yeah, I agree. Years ago I realized that "She" perfectly describes my relationship with my parents. I have no idea what Billie Joe was actually writing about, but hey. Also "Your Fire Your Soul," and I got to thank Dar for giving me a song that fit so perfectly with my life.

Well done, P-C. Sounds like you made your position clear without being aggressive.

New Year's thought:

This year, I want to learn how to be happy with the life I'm living without taking too much things on myself and killing and exhausting myself in the process. Because I think I deserve to, especially after I understood what's deriving so many energies out of me*

And I have no idea how to do this.

The past year I was lazier then I was the previous years, no doubt. But I had a bag of guilt to accompany me for "not doing enough".

How does one gets rid of this feeling?

(note) * - not this feeling. The principle that I won't compromise myself, my opinions or character where I don't have to, even if that will tag me as "weirdo" or whatever, and face that there's not enough explaining in the world for some people, so why bother. And facing that comes with the price of reminding myself everyday that it's not that I'm not getting some of the reaction I feel I deserve, overtime, because I'm not good enough, but because I decided somewhere back that I'm not compromising on my own character; myself. And most of the world just doesn't get along with my mind. But I still prefer to be true to myself than to the agonizing task of following the masses (because frankly, sometime it's a challenge to follow the 479 mph that my mind seems to reach sometimes).

The past year I was lazier then I was the previous years, no doubt. But I had a bag of guilt to accompany me for "not doing enough".

How does one gets rid of this feeling?

Good luck with that one. If you discover the secret let me know.

Good to hear the update on your dad, omnis.

Ha, my little sister knows I won't fast—and she doesn't believe in it either—but she thinks I should just tell my mom that I'm doing it to make her feel better. But stringing her along is probably not a good idea, so there will be ~*drama*~.

The incredible Journey: [link]

Talk about a reason to chip your companion animals...