I just raged in an email to mac's therapist.
I'd rage to my mom, but well, what can she do? and honestly I end up being the one offering reassurance and having to be the rational calming voice whenever I call them about mac.
Spike: I'm not a monster. Xander: Yes! You are a monster. Vampires are monsters! They make monster movies about them! Spike: Well, yeah. Got me there.
'Dirty Girls'
Natter 63: Life after PuppyCam
Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, duct tape, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.
msbelle - Jul 10, 2009 7:02:06 am PDT #28413 of 30000
I remember the crazy days. 500 posts an hour. Nubmer! Natgbsb
Kat - Jul 10, 2009 7:03:44 am PDT #28414 of 30000
"I keep to a strict diet of ill-advised enthusiasm and heartfelt regret." Leigh Bardugo
msbelle, you can call and rage to me if that would make you feel better.
flea - Jul 10, 2009 7:11:44 am PDT #28415 of 30000
information libertarian
msbelle, can you rage to YOUR therapist? (I hope you have one, I think you do, right?)
Kat - Jul 10, 2009 7:12:49 am PDT #28416 of 30000
"I keep to a strict diet of ill-advised enthusiasm and heartfelt regret." Leigh Bardugo
Random, yo gabba gabba just had someone playing the theramin. That's how you know it's a geek hipster show. Ugh.
Aims - Jul 10, 2009 7:16:27 am PDT #28417 of 30000
Shit's all sorts of different now.
*sigh* I love DJ Lance.
Kat - Jul 10, 2009 7:17:51 am PDT #28418 of 30000
"I keep to a strict diet of ill-advised enthusiasm and heartfelt regret." Leigh Bardugo
DJ Lance freaks me out. He needs to blink!
msbelle - Jul 10, 2009 7:21:11 am PDT #28419 of 30000
I remember the crazy days. 500 posts an hour. Nubmer! Natgbsb
no flea, I don't. I see mac's every week. I can't manage another expense or another appointment during my workday. As it is, since June, I went form a 2 hour lunch every other Thursday to one every Thursday. Then there is never staying late. Not being able to be here on time for the Tuesday 8:30 meetings all summer because the summer program is an 8am start.
And honestly - venting here and elsewhere on the internet is about as good as it gets - I do not think a therapist would help. I've been in therapy that was helpful, but having someone else validate that this is hard is not worth the time or money for me. I may get more sitter help is what I might do, BUT, and there is always a but - when mac is high anxiety like he is now - he needs MORE of my time and MORE assurance that he will not lose me and MORE devoted attention. I need a live-in who does not want sex or money, or a sponsor so I can drop down to part-time work yet still have insurance.
Gudanov - Jul 10, 2009 7:27:10 am PDT #28420 of 30000
Coding and Sleeping
I am so tired of car problems.
Car problems are never fun and often expensive. I don't like them either.
I got lucky recently, the blower motor on my Honda was squeaking like mad and I kept putting off replacing it because it's really uncomfortable on my back to do it. It stopped squeaking recently. Procrastination pays off!
And honestly - venting here and elsewhere on the internet is about as good as it gets
Here is a good place to vent. I've used it myself. I'm sorry you are having to go through so much. It makes our parenting issues seem very insignificant.
Glamcookie - Jul 10, 2009 7:31:36 am PDT #28421 of 30000
I know my own heart and understand my fellow man. But I am made unlike anyone I have ever met. I dare to say I am like no one in the whole world. - Anne Lister
I'm sorry you and mac are having a rough time, msbelle. Thinking of you both.
Dana - Jul 10, 2009 7:40:11 am PDT #28422 of 30000
I'm terrifically busy with my ennui.
Should be working. Don't wanna.