DSotM has made everything all sadder. I know the reruns aren't at a happy fun time, or anything, but this latest episode makes everything all worse.

I was almost late for work because I had to listen to all of Dean's speech to Tessa where he tells her that he had wished he'd gone with her, that he had a hole inside of him, and it's just so gutting.

I need to rewatch Changing Channels, or something.

I'm rewatching S1 and I'm struck as always by Sam the observer. I loved last week's episode because Sam was again that observer like S1.

I love this version of Sam, the Sam that's less damaged (or differently damaged) than everyone around him. He has the ability to see and understand things beyond the surface telling of them. He's solid (no pun intended) and self-actualized. I believe he wants that desperately for Dean, but the maelstrom of events and the inability to effectively reach his brother are his burden.

I'm not sure what this says about me, but I'm solidly in the camp that loves to woobify Dean. The more tragic and despairing he becomes the more compelled I am.

And then I just want Sam to be able to help his brother heal in some way. I need Sam to be the emotionally healthy brother (healthy on the Winchester spectrum of course).

Are we in a straight run to the end or do we have any more skipped weeks with no new show?

IONTICCMBATDL (In other news that I could check myself but am too damn lazy), is it Thursday yet?

Straight run to the end.

I need Sam to be the emotionally healthy brother (healthy on the Winchester spectrum of course).

For values of healthy that still include "need to be fed tomato soup with rice"? I just need them functionally co-dependent again. I wonder if Kripke (or Sera) has any intention of making them normal. I hope not.

And they don't have to rush the healing, but I'd really rather not have them broken up over the summer hiatus. That's metallicar-crashing cruel. But if they end the apocalypse (which I'm assuming they will) what other tension do they have to leave us with?

I just need them functionally co-dependent again.

I cannot see any way for them to improve much beyond this watermark. I'd be on board if show pulled it off as long is it didn't include long-term separation.

I need these brothers together not apart.

I just need them functionally co-dependent again.

This.

I'm no good at meta at this point, my critical faculties are all shorted out. I'm reading with interest, reserving judgment until end of season.

So I'm just going to keep posting about inane details, unless somebody objects.

I did a tiny LJ/DW meta post on Dean's bracelet and ring and amulet. Someone else noticed the absence of the ring and bracelet and wrote a short ficlet. And I notice in the Jus In Bello Italian con pics (whence the singing vid), JA's wearing his very own personal skull bead bracelet. IDEK, I just can't help noticing. And then sharing.

My god, JP's hair is reaching Kanelike levels of near-sentience.

Wow, I missed a lot of excellent conversation over the weekend! And con vids! AND JENSEN SINGING!

I think my brain just melted a little with the growling and singing THE WEIGHT OMG and the guitar playing (and thumping it, which was weirdly hot). Rowr, Jensen Ackles. I am a fan, sir.

Yeah, the guitar thumping was kinda cool, wasn't it?

I've been earwormed with The Weight All. Damned. Day.