I...I thought last week was the midseason finale. I even wish it was, because I don't think I can like this week as much as either of the last two (stats, life, you know--general pessimism) and I'd love to have gone out on either of those highs.

So when I saw the preview again I actually felt nervous before I felt happy there was more Show. That's sad. I've liked this season so far. It was weird.

And *now* I'm extra sad that we have to wait a month afterwards.

So I'm trying to distract myself from guessing about Benny tomorrow--two things--does he violate Dean's trust, and is this his last appearance this season?

Oh--I'll go for three--is Dean hiding something Amy Pondish?

Like, he got Cas pregnant in Purgatory?

We may not be thinking of the same Amy Pond.

Oh--I'll go for three--is Dean hiding something Amy Pondish?

I don't watch Dr. Who, so I don't know what this means.

It has nothing to do with Doctor Who. The kitsune Sam wouldn't kill, remember? Played by Staite? Surely you guys haven't forgotten already? There was enough complaining happening here.

Was her name Amy Pond? I only remembered Amy. Sorry.

I have no idea how I feel, other than WOUND THE FUCK UP.

Okay--I have some words.

This ep left me wound the fuck up.

I do have to say, Dean and Sam argue like people who have each other's hooks and they like to pull them tight. Fuck brotherly banter and fighting like a well-oiled team. They just went at each other's buttons with piledrivers.

Because, seriously--Dean was plenty cagey and daring Benny to disappoint him. THAT'S DEAN. But he will also throw Stanford in Sam's face (well, maybe Purgatory now) before saying "If Benny's killing again, that's on me, and I'll take him out." It's what he means, it could end the argument, but...yup. That damned lede. Buried behind all sorts of fraternal resentment.

I do like them being so close that we romanticise the crap out of it isn't puppies and unicorn farts. But Demian and Barnes were still right.

The Amelia message was FUCKED UP. If I were Sam, I'd be storing up a fuck of a punch on that one. Yeah, you gotta take your adversaries out before they reach the battlefield, especially if it's one you can't fight full on. But you don't have to rip their heart out and make them panic and hope and shit--and I bet there's no little throwing his "well you're not together now" relationship in his face here too.

Amelia being real disappoints the fuck out of me, sadly, but it all hinges on what happens now--Sam taking himself out of the picture I don't disagree with. They're married. If she tries to find you, then sure--hook up. But do get all the way out of town in the meanwhile. Even save a couple lives in the meanwhile.

They did make me hate Martin by the end, but I totally projected either Benny dying or him turning Elizabeth (at many times in the ep) so I don't know what I really saw. Benny takes out Martin (self defense, but still) traumatises Elizabeth and goes the deep underground Dean recommended?

How do they get past the various betrayals an the death of Martin? How do they even get into the same place?

And, Dean, tracking down every girl Sam looks at is kinda creepy. Where is Sarah Blake?

Oh, and why write these words for Sam: "Maybe I'm going to hell for saying this?" Why in anyone's name would a Winchester ever say that casually? It sounded so weird to me.

I'm still thinking of Dean's car..Sam's called it Dean's car before. So what changed *now* (over the year) to make it John's car again? Because it's too close to him being gone and you not trying to find him? Whenever Dean was given the car is irrelevant. Neither of them have called it John's before S8, 9.5 years in, and they have both called it Dean's. This is the discrepancy, and as such I think it should have in narrative justification but I just can't find anything that holds together. Just meta pacing.

Did Sam show poor judgement in picking Martin for lookout? Does not seem like a "get well" job to me.

Wasn't Sam ambivalent? Maybe he wanted to kill Benny.