I saw it in character for Dean. He's hypocritical about this shit (cf making deals with Crowley), and she was killing people. I at least figured he'd done that much due diligence--partially because he was right. Lenore had "I'm not doing it now" to add to her "I won't do it ever". Amy had clearly gone against her word for something more important.
Also, perhaps Dean understands he will kill people at the drop of a hat for Sam, so why wouldn't she do that for
her
charge?
(I did mention the hypocrite thing, right?)
Also true. Oh, DEAN.
This conversation is weird, though, because every time I see "Amy," I think, What did I do?!
YOU KILLED PEOPLE.
(that never happens to me. I just sit around, mooning...)
Well, I usually try not to ...
It's not your fault, Amy. It's just your nature.
That's what they tell me ...
Wow, hiatus feels long already.
I wonder if Sam is consciously aware that his stance on monsters has changed - he seemed to accept that Madison had to die, despite the fact that she wasn't deliberately killing people. And I'd think her own acceptance of that necessity would argue more compellingly for her resolve to avoid killing people than Amy pleading for her life and pinkie swearing that she'd never murder anyone for their brains again (unless her kid got another case of the sniffles, of course).
I'd think her own acceptance of that necessity would argue more compellingly for her resolve to avoid killing people
But her resolve had just been pointed out to be useless. Amy had been seen to act in direct conflict with her nature, by killing her own mother to save Sam's life. All the good thoughts on Madison's side were clearly irrelevant and she was going to kill the next time she had an opportunity.
Except the demon in Madison came out only at night, never during the day. So build a cage with a time controlled lock (mechanical like some old time safes not electronic). See what time sunrise is, set cage to open after sunrise, get in cage before sunset.
If someone told you to build a cage like that, could you? Reliably enough to ensure you wouldn't kill anyone ever?
I think it's a perfectly plausible choice to make to say that she can't live with that threat and responsibility over her head, and to choose to end her life anyway.
I mean, she doesn't like what she's become. She's not the same woman she was last year. I can't imagine living with knowing I'm a monster, and a bullet seems really simple in comparison.
If she can't find wisdom in Tibet, who's going to lock her away every month?
