Two last thoughts:

1) Can demons alter memories? Maybe at this point all the paperwork and staff memories say Cas was the patient all along.

2) If Cas gets cured by losing his temper and transferring the injury to someone else, maybe it will be Dean. Dean always could make Cas lose his shit. More guilt for Cas, more guilt for Sam (his injury) and more manpain for Dean.

One is supernatural, the other ain't.

We need a nice short convenient word for bending reality to suit narrative, but it's intended to be sufficiently realistic.

I'm sure English Lit has already thought of one, but I just don't know it.

So, psych wards--everybody just wanders around everywhere? I don't get as much freedom when I'm admitted, not committed.

Rachel Miner looked like she'd gained weight, and a little bit of my mind wondered about demons getting pregnant from angel kisses. It amused me. I would like to see her in something else, to see how much of that delivery is her, and how much is Meg.

God, I love Sam so much. He's entirely on the road to dying, committed to shuffling off the mortal coil, but he doesn't hesitate to work a case before it all goes south.

I love the way Sam curls his body over the female patient's to protect her from the shattering glass. He's so big, and...triggers all my damsel reflexes, when he's not triggering my urges to fight alongside him.

I think Emmanuel's eyes are bigger than Cas's.

I don't remember seeing the "Part of me always believed you'd come back" line in the ep itself.

There's a version of this story where Dean kisses Emmanuel when he says he doesn't remember how to smite people. I hope I read it soon.

Okay...I just rewatched the final half hour, and I didn't know there was room for me to love Cas more, but...there it is.

I still can't get over the coat, and how perfect that was.

The coat killed me.

Sam -- huge and mountain-man bearded -- flinching when Lucifer was lighting those fuses also killed me.

It's not even close to my favorite moment, or the most emotionally intense one, but I still love the way Dean rolled his eyes when Cas said he didn't know how to ride a bike, either.

It looked to me like Rachel Miner was maybe on medication, like prednisone or something. Her face was so incredibly round when it wasn't before, and it didn't look like she'd gained weight anywhere else.

Yeah, when I had the pregnancy random thought I looked at her torso, and it seemed the same teeny torso she'd always had.

Sam doesn't ever seem to go to hospital for injuries or sickness, does he? He always seems to be strapped down to something. And I love it. I think Momoa made a great Conan, but I do think "mighty thews" when I look at Sam's body, especially when he was strapped down for the electro-shock, and straining against those bindings. Fucking huge, man.

The electroshock scene upset me a lot more than I would have expected.

I have to watch it again. I don't think I've really digested everything that happened. They packed an awful lot into one episode, which I think probably explains some of the plot shortcuts.

Yeah, I did fast forward past that on my partial rewatch. I just...I don't want to watch Sam going through that again. That was...I'm so glad, at least, that Cas was able to cure him of that right a way, I'm assuming.

This whole episode is wide open with fic possibilities, primarily of the Emmanuel!Cas variety. But also the ending -- watching Misha play Cas remembering who he was was so painful, and now that he's there with Lucifer, he's going to have nothing to think about but how he believes he failed (the world, heaven, DEAN) while Lucifer taunts him and Meg does ... whatever she's going to do.

I can't believe that Meg will refrain from tormenting Cas.Or the patients. Or the staff. Unless Cas is enough in control to make it clear she is in trouble if she does not stop.

I'm assuming Meg is there explicitly not to torment Cas. Can't speak for the rest of the patients, but my understanding was that the boys knew she was there--that's what they were talking about when they left, about working with a demon.

She's there to watch over Cas, kind of like she was during the entire episode, because Team Free Will is all the shot she has at self defense.

She won't be fucking with him in my scenario.

I had originally wondered if Meg was Daphne, but here's another chance for her to become curiously close to Cas, especially when his defenses are all askew.

Of everyone we met in S1, *Meg* is the only person apart from the boys Winchester that's alive and kicking and comes round to visit. Who would have thought, man? That it would have been a chick, much less her?