Move toward what you really want
What I realized, at the age of 37, is I don't even know how to figure out WHAT I want. I've spent too damned long doing and being what other people wanted me to do and be -- or what they told me I should want to do and be -- and now I'm floundering. I need to move forward, away from where I am, but I don't know *what* to move towards. Worse still, I can't figure out how to figure out what that might be.
incoherently yours,
Still Doesn't Know What She Wants to Be When She Grows Up
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Maybe I should move towards puppies.
Still Doesn't Know What She Wants to Be When She Grows Up
You better figure it out before the socialism.
Duuuuuuuudes!
(Disclaimer: I apologize for the multitude of exclamation marks and caps lock letters, but):
My sister was just majorly upgraded to something like "Sergeant Commander" rank/title, WITHOUT having to do 3 months command course, because she's so awesome at her army job!!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!!
(Then again, that course was supposed to send her away from Gaza Strip for 3 months. But hey, screw that - I have an awesome sister, no matter where she is).
Oh noes, Teh Socialism!!1!11!!!!ELEVENTY!!!1!!111
The puppycam puppies are VERY feisty today!!
Um, that's all I've got. I'm waiting for reams of paper to be delivered so I can print stuff out and be productive. I'm sure there are other things I could do, but I can't leave the house until they deliver the paper. It looks sunny and nice out, but I can't leave the house.
I'm annoyed at my girlfriend (who still won't let me call her my girlfriend, officially, but whatever, it's easier than calling her some other convoluted term, so I've given up). I don't really want to do work. I hate Mondays. I feel grumpy....oh so grumpy....I want coffee....which I can't go get without missing the delivery person....
What do I want to be when I grow up? Alive.
I may just live forever, at this rate.
Still Doesn't Know What She Wants to Be When She Grows Up
You better figure it out before the socialism.
Shit, man! You're right, but there's ALREADY so many things I want to do before the socialism!
My sister was just majorly upgraded to something like "Sergeant Commander" rank/title, WITHOUT having to do 3 months command course, because she's so awesome at her army job!!!
Now THAT? Is made of awesome!
I thought I would be something by now, but I'm not.
Of course, it's not all because of me. Some is The Man.
That doesn't make it easier.
In the immortal words of Lily Tomlin, "All my life I've always wanted to be somebody. But I see now I should have been more specific." At this point, "When I grow up I want to be an old woman."
That drugging incident is scary, Omnis. Is it being investigated?
