Illyria: Wesley's dead. I'm feeling grief for him. I can't seem to control it. I wish to do more violence. Spike: Well, wishes just happen to be horses today.

'Not Fade Away'


Spike's Bitches 43: Who am I kidding? I love to brag.  

[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.


Steph L. - Dec 31, 2008 9:35:57 am PST #6368 of 10000
I look more rad than Lutheranism

Ok, so I took my first at 9:30 this morning. If I take the second at like 7:30 tonight and then go to 12 hours from there, I'll be ok?

Totally. If you're not so ill that you're in an isolated hospital ward, you don't have to be precise, just somewhere in the neighborhood.


Beverly - Dec 31, 2008 9:49:09 am PST #6369 of 10000
Days shrink and grow cold, sunlight through leaves is my song. Winter is long.

The one human interaction dynamic that I struggle with the most is having to take care of other people when a) they are ostensibly taking care of me or b) I need to take are of myself.

This. How do you escape from this? We had to have a traditional southern funeral for my dad--he'd never met a stranger, and everybody wanted to come pay their respects. Mom was a wreck, and we just sat her in the corner and the condolers just flocked past her, patting and praying and telling stories. She was the center of attention and completely free, in fact encouraged and expected, to indulge her grief publicly.

I, on the other hand? People walked in the door, saw him in the coffin, saw her sobbing unrestrainedly, puddled up and started patting and pawing and platituding--at me. Which left me rubbing their hands or patting their backs, talking soothingly and ushering them toward Mom's entourage. It was years--years, before I was able to recall the man my dad had been, and finally mourn him. The circus surrounding his funeral did absolutely nothing to provide closure for me or to facilitate my grief. I hope it celebrated him in the memories of those casual mourners, because otherwise it was a complete waste of energy and time, for me.

We had a very small, very private memorial service for StE, only four of us, family. And we clung and supported each other, and didn't have to endure and help other people through their easy, social "sympathy."


smonster - Dec 31, 2008 9:50:13 am PST #6370 of 10000
We won’t stop until everyone is gay.

Hi Calli! ::hangs on to hat::

I was having an anxiety attack, so I went and grabbed some lunch with a wise friend. I feel a little better and I'm going to work on the report in Powerpoint form. I may get asked to redo it, but at least I'll have something to show and a workable outline.

And a presentation that I could make.


Glamcookie - Dec 31, 2008 9:54:05 am PST #6371 of 10000
I know my own heart and understand my fellow man. But I am made unlike anyone I have ever met. I dare to say I am like no one in the whole world. - Anne Lister

another drug question: doc has me on codeine and i know from past experience that i do better with pain relief on vicodin than codeine. do i mention this or just go with what he says?


Hil R. - Dec 31, 2008 9:56:50 am PST #6372 of 10000
Sometimes I think I might just move up to Vermont, open a bookstore or a vegan restaurant. Adam Schlesinger, z''l

another drug question: doc has me on codeine and i know from past experience that i do better with pain relief on vicodin than codeine. do i mention this or just go with what he says?

Mention it. If there's some reason why vicodin wouldn't be a good choice for you right now, he'll tell you.


Calli - Dec 31, 2008 9:57:39 am PST #6373 of 10000
I must obey the inscrutable exhortations of my soul—Calvin and Hobbs

I'm glad you've found a workable approach to the report, smonster.

I grabbed some sushi with a couple of coworkers. Mmmmmm, eel.


Laura - Dec 31, 2008 9:58:01 am PST #6374 of 10000
Our wings are not tired.

Absolutely mention the preference. Not all people have prior experience so the doctor is just choosing his preference.


Steph L. - Dec 31, 2008 10:03:54 am PST #6375 of 10000
I look more rad than Lutheranism

Absolutely mention the preference. Not all people have prior experience so the doctor is just choosing his preference.

Totally. I think that vicodin is stronger than codeine, and a lot of doctors are ridiculous when it comes to not prescribing stronger painkillers, because of the fear of creating/supporting addiction. So they start with ibuprofen, move to codeine, and you generally have to ask for -- or pass out from pain in front of them in order to be prescribed -- vicodin/percocet/similar.

But a reasonable doctor should be open to reasonable input from their patient.

(Which is to say, I think you're not exactly giving off the "I'm a junkie" vibe.)


Glamcookie - Dec 31, 2008 10:10:34 am PST #6376 of 10000
I know my own heart and understand my fellow man. But I am made unlike anyone I have ever met. I dare to say I am like no one in the whole world. - Anne Lister

(Which is to say, I think you're not exactly giving off the "I'm a junkie" vibe.)
Right. I have lots of vicodin at home from past dental ickiness that has been sitting there for months.


Glamcookie - Dec 31, 2008 10:12:36 am PST #6377 of 10000
I know my own heart and understand my fellow man. But I am made unlike anyone I have ever met. I dare to say I am like no one in the whole world. - Anne Lister

I have on stretchy hospital panties. I feel so hot right now.