Why aren't you sleeping yet?

(a) Because it is not yet midnight here

(b) Because I am dealing with mad (ex-)friend drama. I want the situation to all work out wonderfully, but...it is not. And I have no idea how to answer her emails. And it is making me stressy and sad. And even more paranoid about the future. And suspecting that the next few weeks are going to suck a hell of a lot. Doom doom doom. Gloom gloom gloom.

Oh, meara. Been to this place.

In my case, I found that these situations tend to warp strictly around the other person's feelings and expectations. Soon, the whole world (as in your whole world) seems to revolve around them, until you'll get to the point where the both of you are comfortable with.

But this doesn't always happen. And it's important to let go and live with the idea that not everything will get a shiny ending, or else it will resolve in weeks, months and years or waltzing along the "sorry I'm stepping on your toes, but this is important to me" theme.

Of course, my foot might be way into my mouth and I'm dead wrong about your case.

Well, the problem is, I know I did her wrong...but I'm only so willing to apologize for it. And she seems to want me to throw myself at her feet and say I was so wrong and she was so right and I will absent myself from all social gatherings in favor of her until she feels comfortable, etc etc.

And I'm willing to do a bit of give--I do know that I wasn't cool, but I ALSO think she overreacted, and the event in question happened three months ago, and while I'm willing to cede a bit of comfort to her (and was VERY willing to do so at the time)...at some point she just needs to get over it.

Sigh. Stupid girls. Stupid lesbians. Stupid dating.

{meara}

Uh oh Meara, is this about who I think it's about? I'm sorry it's gotten to this.

I'm awake too, but have just taken some melatonin so probably not here much longer. Morning, Shir!

Yep, Java, it's exactly what you're thinking, and it's SOOOO gone there. Maybe we can chat about it sometime, cause I'm just ACK all over the place at the moment. Partly due to late nights and other drama in the life, but....blah.

...I need to go to bed and hope tomorrow is a better day. Because right now I have a couple emails in my inbox that I just have no idea how to respond to, and anything I say at the moment would be rather emo dump. And I'm thinking it's a good thing certain OTHER people aren't on IM, because lord knows what I might type...I may not be a drunk dialer, but I am a late night emo IMer!!

Meara is a cute late night IMer. I am mildly stoned on cold meds and feeling a little brain tipsy. Amazing my thumbs still can wirkthus iPhone thingy. Mostly clearly. Autocorrect helps. Am hovering between incoherent and deeply profound, I'm sure. Think incoherent is winnign. Probably. Oops.

Go to bed, crazy Americans.

IOmeN, I just emailed the place I volunteer at, letting the great people there know that due to uni and having to work and etc. I don't think I'll be able to finish a task they gave me.

This might be the time to say that in order to accomplish this task, IMHO, they need someone in full time job for 2 months. I was given 3 months when I told them I have 2-4 free hours per week. So I don't feel too bad, but I'll do my best about that task and then stop volunteer there until my second semester, in Feb./March. But it still sucks I can't do more for this place.

Edit: Can't. Spell.

Going tongry to go to sleep now. Have a good day, Shir! Night to other stateside ffistas. Sweet dreams everyone!

Night, Kristin!