Teppy, I am so sorry.

I want to ask him to come home because I'm hysterical and can't calm down, but that isn't fair to him, because he wants to be there and plus they need his help. But I don't want to be alone for the next 6 hours.

ASK HIM. Yes, he probably wants to be there, but I'm certain he'd want to be with you more if he knew you were having trouble. Can you go ahead and call him now? Or text him a 911 text telling him to call home ASAP?

But this is a legitimate crisis and he'd rather be with you when you're in this state that off having fun.

Yes, this.

When I've had panic attacks, it's usually helped to find some way to distract myself. Do you have someone you can call and talk to, or a DVD or something to watch? Want us to link to weird YouTube clips? (Looking at other peoples' crazy seems to help me, for some reason. [link] )

(((Teppy))) Sorry you're going through this.

Oh Tep, do you have anybody else you could call to come over and be with you? I think that would be grounding and help you.

I can't. I realize the irony of complaining that my dad won't call anyone but me when he's in the hospital, while *I* turn around and refuse to call anyone.

But -- I'd have to explain to them what's going on, and I'm not exactly coherent, and it's just too much. I would need someone who I don't have to explain anything to.

It might have to be Tim, even though it's extremely inconvenient. But this is a legitimate crisis and he'd rather be with you when you're in this state that off having fun.

I'm going to RUIN his night. Which makes me feel even worse.

Would it help to talk to one of us on the phone?

I was in the process of posting "No, thank you," before you called and got all bossy.

And thank you. Even though all I could manage was weepy sniffles.

Ruin his night. It's what love is for. It's not ruining ruining.

For those playing along at home, MAC was the answer. I think. I'm up a tube of Cyber and a bottle of Vintage Vamp.

{{{{{Tep}}}}}

Oh Teppy. I'm glad Hec called you. I wish there was something I could do. Please please please take care of yourself, and treat yourself gently.

The amount of lipstick I've accumulated while looking for the perfect dark pomegranate wine shade sometimes even frightens me.

When you find it, please let me know! I've been on this quest for many years.

Right now the top two colors for me are either Besame's "Noir Rouge" or Wet 'n Wild's 907B.

For those playing along at home, MAC was the answer. I think. I'm up a tube of Cyber and a bottle of Vintage Vamp.

Cyber! I bet that will look really good on you. I always pick up the tester of Cyber, only to have one of the sales assistants at my local MAC store say "Honey, that's Cyber. I know you have that color already". They're not wrong.

Right now the top two colors for me are either Besame's "Noir Rouge" or Wet 'n Wild's 907B.

Making a note to look for these this weekend.

Thanks!

I knew we could trust Hec to call. Panic attacks are no joke.

Jilli, that article made me think all the companies would have decent wines, but no. MAC was the only one with choices, and the only one with deep nail polishes--this was at Nordies, not Sephora though.

Okay, time to do my nails and try on the lipstick.

Take a look at the Besame website. They're clearing out product because they're ... changing packaging or something? So you can get 4 tubes of the same color for $20. Why yes, I now have multiple tubes of "Noir Rouge". I also have 3 tubes of "Bing" by MAC, because that's the color I wear when I want something darker and more blackberry-ish.