Rozeram was a joke. So was Sonata and Lunesta.
I've tried all kinds of sleepy drugs, including an anticonvulsant sample given to me by a psychiatrist that literally made me feel like I might die.
I've had sleep studies, electrodes, teas, tisanes, capsules...
I get incredibly anxious when bedtime approaches and I am out of Ambien. My Rx only lasting two weeks just exacerbates my insomnia problem and I HATES it, precious. I just want to know that if I need to sleep from a certain time to a certain time, I can. And will. Because if I am out, my body will NOT. DO. IT. I can guarantee you, I will be up until at least 7 am this morning, and tomorrow and Sunday, and every fucking day until I can get my next prescription, no matter if I walk, do yoga, meditate. I don't drink caffiene except for the 4 hours after I wake.
And every doctor is all "Oh, no, let's try something ELSE because 20 mgs would JUST BE AWFUL OMG" and I'm like "Dude. It WORKS. Why is that so damn bad?"
"Because it's potentially addictive!"
"I DON'T CARE. Sleeeeeepppppppp."
He and a friend are joking about personal responsibility (as referenced by Palin in the debate) and how they can get "their handouts."
Here's what I've written so far: "In response to 'Now where's my handout?'
"Apparently you can have mine when I'm done with it.
Remember that people actually read this stuff, and you don't know everyone's situation. And sometimes you do. Some of us don't appreciate our struggles and fights being reduced to incorrect assumptions. They also don't appreciate people continuing to spread incorrect assumptions. Even as jokes."
Don't blow up, vw.
Oh lord, Rozerem. With the fun hardly-anyone-suffers-it side effect of
increasing depressive tendencies.
Gosh, thanks. That was a gift-with-purchase I didn't need.
no matter if I walk, do yoga, meditate. I don't drink caffiene except for the 4 hours after I wake.
I suspect that much like migraines, chronic insomnia is something that is people don't understand how debilitating it can be unless they go through it themselves.
And that's your BRO, vw? Does he just not think, or does he actually think THAT?
I'm in tears. This is stupid. I just don't get my brother sometimes. He just doesn't get it. I love him, but he just doesn't get it.
You know, my boyfriend's family found out this week (at Rash Hashanah dinner) that I'm on Medicare and Medicaid, and they didn't bat an eye. But my brother gives me shit and spreads incorrect shit about "handouts." I could kill him.
I didn't understand how bad insomnia could be until mine escalated about 15 years ago. The one strange benefit of chemo was that, except for exciting bone pain days, I lay down and fell asleep. I even napped, something I've never been able to do.
It used to be that once I finally fell asleep, I'd stay asleep, but since moved from tamoxifen to another hormone-suppressing drug a couple of months ago, I keep waking up a 4.
Thanks, Jilli. Your question allowed me to articulate some frustration. I feel like a junkie, talking about Ambien; it's gotten to the point where I'm thinking about switching Targets because I call them to see when I can get it -- 24th? 25th? please god, I haven't slept for more than 10 hours this week -- refilled, because it's a controlled substance, and you can't get more than a 30 day supply without specific dr. orders or something.
It's not a fun drug; I don't party with it. I don't take it during the day. I take it from 9 p.m. to 10:30 pm and I am tucked peacefully in bed by 11:30. But without it, I don't sleep. I am sobbing as I stare at the clock. 2, 3, 4, 5.
The most depressing time of the morning is 5:55 am, because that's when I would relaize no matter if I fell asleep RIGHT NOW, I would get the at the most 1 hour of sleep before I had to leave the house for work.
I've done without it for a couple of months, and those were months when I grew so depressed I thought I might die.
So, yeah, I just want to find a doctor that gets this, and doesn't make me feel like some kind of hands-out hypehead for asking for an increase in a medication dosage after 5 years of usage, a dosage that alleviates my condition and doesn't cause me any adverse side effects.
ARGH. It's so annoying. The problem is fixable; can't I just have someone pound the fucking nail in for me?
