I have been having mostly scary trippy dreams every night since I quit smoking pot. Last night I had to pick my way through metal scraps to get to a subway stop before the last train left and the local people (who looked like the beggars from Jesus Christ Superstar) were not happy that I was in their neighborhood.
'A Hole in the World'
Spike's Bitches 42: Which question do you want me to answer first?
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
Since I'm home today, I finally watched Dr. Horrible, since it's on Hulu.com (which FUCKING ROCKS).
I heart Neil Patrick Harris. I heart the hell out of him.
Also, I'm beginning to see why women (and men, I'm sure) find Captain Tightpants Hammer to be attractive. (Although he was pretty much The Tick, sans the blue outfit, wasn't he? ["The hammer is my penis."])
Still no change for S. She's still holding steady, but her kidneys are apparently starting to feel the strain. This is a net not so good for the prognosis, but as long as she holds steady, there's some hope.
Still, I'm starting to prepare myself for the worst.
Hugs to you Sean. You've been in my thoughts and will continue to be.
Aw man, Sean. Is her family there yet?
Still, I'm starting to prepare myself for the worst.
Oh, fuck, Sean. Fuck fuck fuck fuck FUCK.
I want to say, don't prepare yourself for the worst. I want to say, there's always hope. And there is. But godfuckingdammit.
I'd be doing the same thing in your shoes.
I hate this for you. I hate it for S. even more. It shouldn't be happening.
Sean. This is horrible for you and worse for S. And there is not a fucking thing I can do, but - I hope you are preparing yourself for something that does not happen. I'm sure you are too.
{{{Sean}}}
Sean, I'm so sorry you're having to deal with this. I'm sure I'm not alone in saying this, but if you ever need to message or email or whatever, feel free.
The kidney doctor says it's not that bad yet. And I always have hope.
And you guys. I don't think I could do this without you guys.