So, I've been spending the past 15 hours in a crazy making, tear inducing, fear mongering holding pattern.

We have a landline w/machine that we almost never check. Last night Em was messing with it and I heard a message from my OB/GYN (I had my annual 2 weeks ago). I replay the messages and sure enough, they've been trying to get ahold of me for a couple of days. I'm to call the office as soon as possible and speak to the nurse.

Cue freak out.

If it was a billing issue, I'd call the billing person. You only have to call the nurse if your hoo-hah is about to fall out.

This morning, I spend 45 minutes trying to get through to their office. One website says they open at 8, one website says 8:30, the after hours message says 8:30. WTF. WHICH IS IT I AM FREAKING OUT??? At 8:45 I finally get the nurse who informs me that the lab was "unable to make any diagnosis as there weren't enough cells."

WTF.

So now, I have to go back to the Dr's office and have a new smear done on the 22nd. at 7:10am. In two weeks. Wherein I can stress myself into a frenzy.

Up until 7:00-ish, yesterday sucked a big asshole. Then Ihad pizza and was happier.

I have since declared to day backwards day whereas I am eating my lunch for breakfast (pizza) and my breakfast for lunch (yogurt, granola, berries).

citalapram (Celexa -- I didn't know it was also called Lexapro, huh)

Lexapro and Celexa are slightly different. (Two jobs ago I worked for a company that did corporate videos for pharma clients, and Lexapro was one of ours, so I used to know way too much about the chemical differences between the two. Most of it's still there but fuzzy - fortunately I'm sure Tep can correct whatever innaccuracies I'm about to post.)

Basically, Celexa/citalopram is a molecule with two mirror-image halves, kind of like an open book. L-citalopram/Lexapro is that same molecule, but just the left side, the idea being that that half was the "active" half (bonding to seratonin channels and blocking reuptake) and the other side was probably causing most of the side effects (bonding to other receptors in the brain and being generally unhelpful). It was also (not that we put this in the video) an attempt by the drug-maker to effectively extend the patent for Celexa which was about to expire by replacing it with a new but almost identical drug.

Jess got here before me, and my work is done before I ever started. I wish my *real* job was like that!

All I can add is the nerdy bit of knowledge that Lexapro's generic name is escitalopram, whereas Celexa's is citalopram. (Which is essentially what Jess said, but without the es- part of Lexapro.)

Need moar coffee.

Where is my August heat?

It's here. I'd be happy to send it all to you.

That's crazy-making, Aims, but the odds are they just didn't get a good sample. (Have I ever mentioned that I found out about the breast cancer from a phone message that said, "You have a lump in your breast. I'm making an appointment with a surgeon.")

I say you should start with dessert.

Hil, that's a long weary road and well worth the occasional freak out, but you can do it.

escitalopram

See, I *knew* "L" was wrong, but I couldn't remember for the life of me what that extra syllable actually was.

Go Team Lexapro!

Aims, ugh. Sorry I missed you on FB last night. Night was craxy. Ended up getting my haircut & colored. I'm now a red head again and slightly closer to the sexy, stacked bob I'm longing for.

{{Hil}}

I also had to squoosh a spider yesterday. I found it crawling ON MY THIGH. Liv laughed at my shriek of terror.

This picture is made of aawwww.

I gotta get in gear to get the kids to the gym so I can go to yoga.

I love all the Matilda'n'Emmett pics. They're so sweet together.

Geez, Aims, it's bad enough to have to do the paper-wearing, feet in the air thing once, but then you have to re-take? Blerghh!

The dogs and I are having a no good, very bad morning. Please send reinforcements.

They always have to retake my Paps, it's v.v. annoying.