I have grown tired of singleness.

The drying-up-of-eggs is certainly intensifying the effect.

{Kristin}

{Hil}

{all y'all}

spam and eggs: I wouldn't have to be single if I wasn't so picky. How about you?

Breathe, Hil. Maintain an even strain.

it's about me, being difficult to look at, and more often than not, worthless.

You are so fucking not difficult to look at! I could look at you all day and be glad of the view.

And "worthless"? Really? You have no value at all? So, everybody that loves you just has poor judgment or bad taste? Your friends are all idiots?

I'm pretty sure that The Kristen has excellent judgment and good taste in friends. I would also think that ita knows what she's doing in friend-choosing.

The things that I value in you, Allyson, are the same things you value in other people. You're deeply, honorably loyal. You're smart, and you're fun and you're big hearted. You're good company, snarky and wicked. So I don't doubt that your crush wants to hang out with you. That doesn't mean you're undesirable or unlovable. It just means he thinks you're cool.

Laga, I read that as SPERM and eggs. And was like "Well, that's on topic, but...um...."

...or did you murder your last girlfriend? Is this some kind of karma for past misdeeds?

Maybe I murdered a girlfriend in a past life. Ay.

Though apparently, someone has a crush on me. Somoene besides the 52 year old!

A 45 year old! Who...has a girlfriend in New York with two kids who is moving here in July!

Yeah. I've met her once or twice before, and tonight she was at the dancing with friends of mine, and kept being like "I have to leave" because apparently I was being too cute and flirty or something. Uh. OK? She also apparently has a huge thing for redheads, left handed girls, and other assorted random things that I also happen to be. Though she was relieved to find out I am at least not Jewish. Even though my name is.

Conveniently for me, at least, I am not attracted to her. Because that would be awkward, as I have no intention of stealing her from her westward bound girlfriend with two children...

(Why? Why is there not a hot hot person near my OWN age, who is SINGLE, who thinks I am hot????? Why would that be so wrong, universe??)

Oh, also: GILF's boytoy R, whilst discussing random gayboy that another friend E and I have acquired (who seems very sweet, and has continued to attend events for a few weeks now)

R: So, how did you meet him?

Me: Well, E and I just kinda picked him up, Memorial Day weekend, when it was really empty, and no one was here. He was all alone, so she and I decided to talk to him. You know us, we're friendly like that.

R: That's true. You two are really friendly. It's nice. You were really friendly to me, when I came here.

Me: (thought, but not said) Oh, yeah. When you said "Will you have sex with me" I was just being FRIENDLY when I said "yes". That's why the complete lack of follow through hasn't bothered me ONE BIT.

Scola is so sexy when he looked at me in SF, I giggled like a teenager.(And I like to act hard! You shouldn't do that to people, man, dag.) Allyson, if in some way we could get our preferences lined up, either cause I was a dude or we could be womyn together, I would date you. I love brainy Jewish people. I'm single because...I don't know, I should have died at birth?

Because most of the marriages I've ever seen make me all "Danger, Will Robinson! Danger!"

Because I look at crime-scene photos for pleasure,(um, not that kind of pleasure) and my mother foolishly told me to Be Myself!(Sometimes I wish she'd told me to be somebody else. Somebody better.)

first off. Hil, breathe. Relax. What ever it is, you are brilliant, and it won't be a problem.

Fay. OMG! Gorgeous. I dunno who said it, but the lipstick, flirt, "I fancy you" conversation sounds good to me. And thanks Hec for signing the letter from all of us, I concur!

LET IT BE KNOWN- If someone fancies ME (or you know of someone who does), feel free to let me know. I am clueless in this respect. Which is but one of the reasons I am still single. I accept the fact I am single. I do not like it. But I do not fear it such, that I would make a rash, silly dating decision. I think it was Vortex who said Waiting for the right one. Maybe when she shows, my shyness would drip away. In the meantime, I have a vivid imagination, and a ton of lust that stays well kept inside and doesn't effect outside life. That said, now that I no longer work at old work place, I really want to ask cutie Burlesque dancer formercoworker out. But fear it would be unfair to both of us as I am moving 2,000 miles... plus, not sure if she fancies me. I wonder, if I went to a bar with a childish note taped to my back that says something like "Shy, but great kisser. Talk to him" or something. Would it work?

OK, I really should be in bed. I'm an emotional ball of string... maybe rubber bands. Tired from a VERY COOL late night work session with ND at the Planetarium (LOVE THAT PLACE), and a wreck from lovely sentiments from co-workers in good bye/good luck cards. (it's in my LJ, I can't type it all again. ran out of tissues). OK, off to bed. Must get sleep. Tomorrow is a LONG day. Starts early. Lots of driving.

Daisy Jane, I saw the note, haven't had time to read/respond yet, but the browsing looks like it is chock full of great info. I can't wait to digest the it all. Thankyouthankyouthankyou!

Fay, I've spent time with you on more than one occasion, and I have to say, you are dead sexy. Fo shizzle my nizzle.

I just used the F word in front of a couple of underlings (describing my herculean efforts at maintaining suspension of disbelief during Indy 4). Luckily they were amused.