Allyson, your description of yourself is breathtakingly not the way other people see you. I know I can't convince you. After all, my response to you bright, funny, attractive and articulate people believing that you are essentially unlovable and worthless is to think, "Boy, they think they're unattractive. I am hundreds of times more unattractive than they are."
Simon: Captain... why did you come back for us? Mal: You're on my crew. Simon: Yeah, but you don't even like me. Why'd you come back? Mal: You're on my crew. Why we still talking about this?
'Safe'
Spike's Bitches 41: Thrown together to stand against the forces of darkness
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
Ginger - Jun 06, 2008 6:56:20 pm PDT #2343 of 10001
"It didn't taste good. It tasted soooo horrible. It tasted like....a vodka martini." - Matilda
Burrell - Jun 06, 2008 7:09:40 pm PDT #2344 of 10001
Why did Darth Vader cross the road? To get to the Dark Side!
Oh Allyson, I so wish you could see yourself as the rest of us do. It always amazes me that someone can be so striking and lovely and not know it. I've said it many times so I won't go on here, instead I want to reinforce this:
Besides, fuckit. Worthless people get into relationships too. It's nothing to do with who deserves what. It just is.
It's too friggin' true. There's no rhyme or reason to who is in a relationship and who is single. Don't ever take it as a judgment on yourself. ita's right, it just is.
Cashmere - Jun 06, 2008 7:15:53 pm PDT #2345 of 10001
Now tagless for your comfort.
ION, I just had my first ripe nectarine this year.
BRING ON THE STONE FRUIT SEASON! Holy hell, it was tasty.
P.M. Marc - Jun 06, 2008 7:19:28 pm PDT #2346 of 10001
So come, my friends, be not afraid/We are so lightly here/It is in love that we are made; In love we disappear
It's totally true. I spend a LOT of time wondering how the fuck some people, like my brother, manage to get some. (And generally, pretty attractive, nice, smart chicks. BAFFLES MY MIND. HE PERIODICALLY FORGETS ORAL HYGIENE EXISTS.)
Torque - Jun 06, 2008 7:28:13 pm PDT #2347 of 10001
Bad Wolf
I'm stuck in the nice guys finish last shame spiral.
In other shitty news, just got paged, had to page someone else and wake them up. Then the issue resolved itself.
Pix - Jun 06, 2008 7:31:36 pm PDT #2348 of 10001
We're all getting played with, babe. -Weird Barbie
It just hurts to hear you say you're worthless, Allyson. Because you're most definitely not that.
Very much this. And like Ginger said, I know I can't convince you. But oh, how I wish I could. It's not just being nicey nice. This is not empty praise. You. Are. Not. Ugly. Or. Worthless.
Do we need to be worried about you? I'm getting worried about all the talk of being worthless and wishing you could be dust.
beth b - Jun 06, 2008 7:37:38 pm PDT #2349 of 10001
oh joy! Oh Rapture ! I have a brain!
It just makes life nothing like fair.
Very, Very True.
and if I get to rule the world,I want things way closer to fair.
Hil R. - Jun 06, 2008 7:38:35 pm PDT #2350 of 10001
Sometimes I think I might just move up to Vermont, open a bookstore or a vegan restaurant. Adam Schlesinger, z''l
Allyson, you're most certainly not worthless. And while I've never met you in person, I've seen pictures, and you're not ugly, either.
Vortex - Jun 06, 2008 8:18:19 pm PDT #2351 of 10001
"Cry havoc and let slip the boobs of war!" -- Miracleman
I'm single because I haven't found the person that I want to spend the rest of my life with. or even a few weeks, for that matter. of course, it would probably help if I stopped hanging out in gay bars or with rugby players I can't date :)
Hil R. - Jun 06, 2008 8:25:00 pm PDT #2352 of 10001
Sometimes I think I might just move up to Vermont, open a bookstore or a vegan restaurant. Adam Schlesinger, z''l
Crap. Panic attack. Don't know why. Hate these.