I don't want you to stop talking about it. I want to shake you until you start crying and understand what I'm trying to say.

Besides, fuckit. Worthless people get into relationships too. It's nothing to do with who deserves what. It just is. Serial killers find love. Adolf Hitler could find women who wanted to get into his pants. That doesn't make us worse than him. Or uglier than Carrot Top, or whoever.

It just makes life nothing like fair.

Honestly--what do you think I've done to deserve being single all this time. You can be honest with me here in public. I don't mind.

It just hurts to hear you say you're worthless, Allyson. Because you're most definitely not that. Self-deprecating, I can take. Self-loathing, not so much.

I am sarameg re: singlehood.

I am brenda re: meeting WindSparrow and Daniel.

I am P-C re: VictorC choosing yes to goatee.

I just finished re-watching the finale of DS9 and can I just say that when Kira and Odo say goodbye, it makes me cry every damn time. One of the best relationships in tv history, IMO.

Allyson, your description of yourself is breathtakingly not the way other people see you. I know I can't convince you. After all, my response to you bright, funny, attractive and articulate people believing that you are essentially unlovable and worthless is to think, "Boy, they think they're unattractive. I am hundreds of times more unattractive than they are."

Oh Allyson, I so wish you could see yourself as the rest of us do. It always amazes me that someone can be so striking and lovely and not know it. I've said it many times so I won't go on here, instead I want to reinforce this:

Besides, fuckit. Worthless people get into relationships too. It's nothing to do with who deserves what. It just is.

It's too friggin' true. There's no rhyme or reason to who is in a relationship and who is single. Don't ever take it as a judgment on yourself. ita's right, it just is.

ION, I just had my first ripe nectarine this year.

BRING ON THE STONE FRUIT SEASON! Holy hell, it was tasty.

It's totally true. I spend a LOT of time wondering how the fuck some people, like my brother, manage to get some. (And generally, pretty attractive, nice, smart chicks. BAFFLES MY MIND. HE PERIODICALLY FORGETS ORAL HYGIENE EXISTS.)

I'm stuck in the nice guys finish last shame spiral.

In other shitty news, just got paged, had to page someone else and wake them up. Then the issue resolved itself.

It just hurts to hear you say you're worthless, Allyson. Because you're most definitely not that.

Very much this. And like Ginger said, I know I can't convince you. But oh, how I wish I could. It's not just being nicey nice. This is not empty praise. You. Are. Not. Ugly. Or. Worthless.

Do we need to be worried about you? I'm getting worried about all the talk of being worthless and wishing you could be dust.

It just makes life nothing like fair.

Very, Very True.

and if I get to rule the world,I want things way closer to fair.