So, um, my anger has reached an all new low point. I just effectively spit on someone. In the worst of my BPD I have never done something this low.
I'm so ashamed with myself that I don't even really know what to do.
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Spike's Bitches 38: Well, This Is Just...Neat.
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vw bug - Dec 04, 2007 11:00:43 am PST #7077 of 10002
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askye - Dec 04, 2007 11:04:49 am PST #7078 of 10002
Thrive to spite them
Oh, honey. I'm sorry.
What happened?
vw bug - Dec 04, 2007 11:06:24 am PST #7079 of 10002
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He shit on my DBT presentation.
Kind of ironic, huh?
askye - Dec 04, 2007 11:07:22 am PST #7080 of 10002
Thrive to spite them
Maybe a little.
Is the same guy who riled up the class because he wanted excitement?
vw bug - Dec 04, 2007 11:07:45 am PST #7081 of 10002
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Yeah.
hippocampus - Dec 04, 2007 11:08:07 am PST #7082 of 10002
not your mom's socks.
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askye - Dec 04, 2007 11:08:30 am PST #7083 of 10002
Thrive to spite them
In that case, I'd say most of your anger is justified.
Seriously, that guy sounds like who enjoys being an asshole.
vw bug - Dec 04, 2007 11:09:30 am PST #7084 of 10002
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Yeah, but right now I'm not actually worried about his behavior. I'm worried about mine. He may be an asshole, but I try not to be. And I think I may have--no, I just crossed a line. And I can't take it back.
askye - Dec 04, 2007 11:16:41 am PST #7085 of 10002
Thrive to spite them
You can't take it back, but when you calm down do you think you could apologize?
Are you worried about this effecting your schoolwork/grade?
vw bug - Dec 04, 2007 11:18:54 am PST #7086 of 10002
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You can't take it back, but when you calm down do you think you could apologize?
Yeah. I will. And probably soon. It's just, what do you say? "I'm sorry is was talking about you behind your back, then you walked by and I spit on you"? It just really doesn't seem to be enough.
Are you worried about this effecting your schoolwork/grade?
No. I'm worried about the five steps back I just took.