She's actually asked all the staff to answer a sort of questionnaire about how we see our roles and responsibilities and so on. And she wants it by tomorrow, which I don't know how I'm going to get to, because I'm compiling some October statistics for her which she ALSO wants for tomorrow, and I can tell she was just amazed and appalled that I wasn't already compiling such monthly statistics, because to her that's just an obvious part of an operations manager's role.

I think she sees the "operations" in my title and thinks I'm number-cruncher-in-chief, while I see it more as keeping the ship afloat in general. Also, for the first few months here I was just trying to keep on top of daily demands and figure out what was going on while the entire dept. was in transition, and there's a lot I know I need to do that I haven't had time to sit down and concentrate on. But ever since she's gotten here it's been Susan-do-this and Why-don't-we-have-that. I feel like I've gone from treading water to trying to swim the English Channel with bricks tied around my waist.

And she wants it by tomorrow, which I don't know how I'm going to get to, because I'm compiling some October statistics for her which she ALSO wants for tomorrow, and I can tell she was just amazed and appalled that I wasn't already compiling such monthly statistics, because to her that's just an obvious part of an operations manager's role.

I'd say that you need to stay late or do this at home. This is critical to your job satisfaction, so you gotta make time for it.

The questionnaire sounds key to getting everything straightened out. The stats may have to come second, as they're not a special project with a one-time deadline.

Well, the stats have the same deadline. I think she wants all of this--the stats, the questionnaires, etc.--for a meeting she's having with HER supervisor to discuss her first month on the job.

I just hate staying late or doing things at home, but I may have to. It's just...the thought of giving up a precious hour of writing time, which is all I *get* most days, to deal with this shit is kind of maddening. I already feel like I'm just having to claw and fight for all I'm worth to maintain some tiny shred of who I really am and what I really want to be.

My post got et. Wah.

Good luck with your job stuff, Susan. How frustrating.

I'm having some frustration myself. I'm working on billing paperwork, and it's boring. But I need to complete it so I can haz monies in the bank. And work is SLOW.

In better news, I ran three miles yesterday and feel really good. It's amazing, given that I couldn't even walk for like two weeks after my first week of training. I have discovered a magical machine here in the office, and between that and acupuncture, self-massage, and arnica pills I feel great.

I ran three miles yesterday and feel really good.

Go, you!

Susan--remember that you are who you are even when working a job you don't love. Really, it doesn't define you if you don't think that it does. Hec and Allyson are both published writers who also work in offices. The office work doesn't make either of them less of a writer and it doesn't in your case, either.

It sounds like both you and new boss are going through a shakedown period and those ialways nvolve a lot of assumptions and questions and changes. Filling out this description is a way to get what you want--more input into what you do and how you are seen, so take the extra time.

Go, d! And what magic machine, pray tell?

I'm sorry work is dragging at you, Susan. Do try to make time for a thorough response to that questionaire. Letting your boss know what your understanding of your job needs to be done. If what whe wants you to be doing really is something completely other, well, you both need to know that.

I think part of the problem is I only sort of understand my role myself. I mean, I've been here since June. I had two days of overlap with the guy I replaced, and then I just kinda jumped in and did what needed to be done. I never saw it as some kind of larger mission than just keeping the bureaucracy at bay so the chaplains can do their job. And I don't really WANT a larger mission. Really, was completely busy and a bit backlogged already. I'm just not sure how to describe my role, because it's just doing what needs to be done, and there are always different questions and needs flying at me from one direction or another.

I'm just not sure how to describe my role, because it's just doing what needs to be done, and there are always different questions and needs flying at me from one direction or another.

This is a perfectly valid and honest description.