mmmm yum

and if you are trying to avoid the saturated fat - just make a paste with canola oil

go, butter, choose butter!

why am i eschewing capitals tonight? too lazy to hit the shift key.

Jessica, where are you? I long to see the stars again. fucking central Jersey.

for some reason I don't like to start a line on B.org with a capital letter.

my name has no caps because I am lazy. the only letter I routinely capitalize when I am being lazy is 'I' and only because of what it does if it starts a line here.

My images searches take me kinda random places, and one led me to a page with before and after model makeup links.

Interesting in the same way as the "they photoshopped Faith how???" before and after--but less depressing, since at least they're optical tricks, not CGI.

Right now I'm mostly caught up in the resurgence of a childhood memory. Ebony magazine had taught me that I was supposed to be cocoa brown and wear rich purple makeup.

Still a little caramel over here, and I don't think my colouring could pull off this rocking of the purple. Man, that's lovely. And I don't even think she's pretty.

Back to tab-flipping.

Okay, maybe it's a bad thing to say, but I think I'm prettier than most of those girls. And I honestly don't think I'm all that pretty. Their noses are inhumanly tiny. Sophie Dahl with her tiny nose and huge eyes just looks weird.

ita, I bet you could pull off the purple. You're definitely prettier than them.

I only clicked on some, but it's kind of reassuring to see how not-different they really look un-made-up.

ION, holy crap -- I was watching HBO earlier, then was watching something on tape, then went back to HBO, and it's some documentary about Deep Throat, and I was idly wondering if they would actually be showing the porn-porn, and sure enough -- there was a big old blowjob, right there on my TV.

There are some weird looking ladies there. I guess they get work because of their bone structure, bodies, and carriage. Or something.

She's totally not rocking the purple. Isn't there supposed to be a rule about strong eyes or strong lips? She's actually quite pretty. Just made up weird.

I bet you could pull off the purple

Thanks for the vote of confidence. I think I feel like I...I'd look like the Lakers with my skin clashing.

I was interested to see Devon Aoki's eye makeup, because my eyes look most like hers...nothing useful there. But I think when I'm underweight like now I have a hint of bone structure and can probably look to Naomi Campbell's as, well, somewhere to start.

Not that I'm going to change my makeup routine, because that involves makeup shopping (worse than clothes!) and learning and glayvin.

Alibelle! Hi! You're probably gone now, but what I"m reading, 150 messages back, you're there! Hi! How the hell are you almost 25? Are you sure you're not 19?

I had no idea how to contact her again until now. I just found her on MySpace.

That's awesome, Melpomene!

Now, the question is, is it about the specific job, or working in general. Because if it's the first, presumably I could do something about it. If it's the second, I need to get a grip on reality.

Someone asked me the other day "Ooh, so you are excited to go back to work?" and I was like "....are you crazy?" I mean, yes, unemployment gets kinda boring after a while, but if I could get paid to not work, heck yeah, I'd take it!