Death is your art. You make it with your hands day after day. That final gasp, that look of peace. And part of you is desperate to know: What's it like? Where does it lead you? And now you see, that's the secret. Not the punch you didn't throw or the kicks you didn't land. She really wanted it. Every Slayer has a death wish. Even you.

Spike ,'Conversations with Dead People'


Spike's Bitches 37: You take the killing for granted.  

[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.


Stephanie - Sep 19, 2007 3:05:00 am PDT #6132 of 10001
Trust my rage

I love this time of the year. It's frosty-breath in the morning and evening, but gorgeous during the day. I love it.

I really really miss fall. It's my favorite time of the year. So pretty and you know that winter and Christmas are coming.

I've noticed a change in the weather here, too. No frost, but I can get to my car in the mornings now without sweating.

I went on and on about this in my LJ, but I'm so frustrated with my inability find a childbirth situation that I'm happy with, or even okay with. The whole thing is just stressing me out and I know it's compounded by normal (for me) pregnancy anxiety. I just feel like I need a vacation...


brenda m - Sep 19, 2007 3:09:12 am PDT #6133 of 10001
If you're going through hell/keep on going/don't slow down/keep your fear from showing/you might be gone/'fore the devil even knows you're there

That sucks, Stephanie. Is it a factor of being in PR - different practices and norms - or just not connecting with people and places? Raq might have some advice (or at least knowing sympathy) if it's the former.

In news of me, the one thing I forgot about having hardwood floors is how filthy your feet get. And with the deck now it's like times a million. How do people deal with this? And is it possible to construct a door mat entirely of magic erasers?


Stephanie - Sep 19, 2007 3:24:05 am PDT #6134 of 10001
Trust my rage

We have tile floors and have the exact problem. I have solved it by wearing shoes/Birks/occasioanlly socks all the time around the house. I miss that feel of carpet on bare feet, but I haven't found anyway to keep from getting filthy feet, no matter how often I sweep and mop.

Is it a factor of being in PR - different practices and norms - or just not connecting with people and places?

Both, I think. I got some misleading information from the first doctor I spoke to which made some options not possible. Also, in my opinion, this society doesn't value women very much, beyond looks, and I think the idea of taking charge of your own birth is unusual.

I was actually thinking about Raq as I was posting. IIRC, Mal's birth was not totally smooth. The thing that makes it all really frustrating is that you can't take a child out of a hospital AMA here - child services will take your baby. So once the baby is born in the hospital, he/she is stuck there until they release him/her.


vw bug - Sep 19, 2007 3:25:02 am PDT #6135 of 10001
Mostly lurking...

In news of me, the one thing I forgot about having hardwood floors is how filthy your feet get. And with the deck now it's like times a million. How do people deal with this? And is it possible to construct a door mat entirely of magic erasers?

I have a pair of "indoor flipflops" (some keds that I just wear indoors), so I can still be relatively footloose and fancy free, but yeah. I hate that too. And it's so much worse when you also have a dog!


amych - Sep 19, 2007 3:36:36 am PDT #6136 of 10001
Now let us crush something soft and watch it fountain blood. That is a girlish thing to want to do, yes?

I suspect I'm the weirdo, but I'm grossed out by carpet to the point where I can't stand to set bare feet on it at all.


Stephanie - Sep 19, 2007 3:46:31 am PDT #6137 of 10001
Trust my rage

but I'm grossed out by carpet

Actually, having cleaned our floors for the last year, I'm grossed out at what's there that I never noticed before. The perfect solution is hardwood with a maid who cleans every day.


amych - Sep 19, 2007 4:03:12 am PDT #6138 of 10001
Now let us crush something soft and watch it fountain blood. That is a girlish thing to want to do, yes?

The perfect solution is hardwood with a maid who cleans every day.

I was just saying the other day that we needed a robot maid.


vw bug - Sep 19, 2007 4:22:54 am PDT #6139 of 10001
Mostly lurking...

Question for the Hivemind.

I own ONE pink top. So, why do I own SEVEN pairs of pink socks?


Dana - Sep 19, 2007 4:24:06 am PDT #6140 of 10001
I haven't trusted science since I saw the film "Flubber."

They came in a pack?


Fay - Sep 19, 2007 4:25:34 am PDT #6141 of 10001
"Fuck Western ideologically-motivated gender identification!" Sulu gasped, and came.

They bred?

Or: they were once white socks, but went in the wash with something red?