Sooo, has anyone here ever taken Celexa? My doctor seems to think it will help with my panic attacks and crazy stress levels.

I've never taken it, but I've heard good things about it. Celexa, like Zoloft, is one of those nifty ADs that has the added benefit of reducing panic attacks. It takes 4-6 weeks to really start to make a difference, though, which is why Xanax et al is so important for the transition. In short: Take the drugs! Yay drugs! The sooner you start, the sooner you'll feel better.

Juliana, you know how utterly disgusted I am by Z., so I'm just going to say that I wish I were surprised at his continued asshattery and general obliviousness. As for what Aimee and others said, I couldn't agree more. I have to believe that things happen for a reason, even when they are painful. I am so grateful that your journey took you to SF, though I hate the pain you went through to get there. As you said, you learned so much in the process.

I think I have a wierd view of mistakes - as you can't grow without them . So there isn't much point in regretting them. But some you need to acknowledge and put on the shelf so you don't repeat them. I can think of a number of things that I have done that I don't wish to repeat - but since they all lead me to who/ where I am today I can't regret them

I am incredibly saddened and angry at the fact that Z. destroyed your self-esteem, though. It's just unpossible that such a gorgeous, smart, kickass woman like you should have any doubt about how very much you rock (and how very much we all know it!).

In short: Take the drugs! Yay drugs! The sooner you start, the sooner you'll feel better.

That's what I'm hoping. I also have the name of a counsellor to set up an appointment with, and a VERY STRONG recommendation from my doctor to find a new employer, because he's had a lot of patients burn out while working where I do.

I just wish I hadn't let him beat my esteem down so far.

I was gonna say, you deserve to have sky-high self esteem, but then Kristin went and said it better (nice article too Kristin!)

Also, juliana, this lolcat reminds me of you (and best friend L) [link]

For your Friday afternoon viewing pleasure, I present

"Country Girl"-Primal Scream

Dude. Z? =lame.

Also, my ex? =confusing. She wrote me an email (in response to mine) that was just....bizarre. I was like "Um, WTF are you talking about?" Apparently, for not being a processor, I've done a lot more of it in the past few weeks than she has. Though admittedly, I think she had/has more to deal with.

Finally: I forgot that once I finished the RESUME, I'd have to write COVER LETTERS! EWWWW! Though admittedly, the first one wasn't SO bad, because it was for a job that didn't say the company, so i didn't have to be like "I really want to work at your company!", instead sent it to the recruiter person saying "I want to hear more info!"

Unfortunately, one can't send the cover letter I always want to send, which is "Read the fucking resume."

Sooo, has anyone here ever taken Celexa?

I'm taking Celexa. It just slowly dampened my worst anxiety, the one where my brain ran around in circles screaming my various fears and insecurities. I did have more trouble sleeping for a while, but I adjusted. I still have some anxiety, but it doesn't racket up as high.

nice article too Kristin!

Thanks! I'm really happy with this one. I'm looking forward to a non-list article next week, though.

Unfortunately, one can't send the cover letter I always want to send, which is "Read the fucking resume."

Heh. Ginger funny.

My body hates me. Pain meds rock.

Jilli - you were in my dream last night. We were at your house, but not your real life house. You had your jewelry and accessories everywhere, but you couldn't find what you were looking for. There was more, but it is foggy. As usual, you were FABULOUS.

Can't wait to read it!

juliana, I'm sorry you're still having to hear about Z. He is a damn fool.

Juvie update: There was a fist fight in one of the girls' classrooms today while we were there. The girl that I brought in a horse book for came out with a bloody lip but dry eyes. The other girl had no blood but was crying and yelling. The sent 3 probation officers over to deal with it. This was the first time I've seen fighting out there (I've been going for about 3 months). I sent the horse book along with bloody-lip-girl's roommate to give to her.

One of the little 9 year old boys was still there (two weeks later). We took him some comics and more books. He told us he thought he was getting out yesterday but his dad said not yet. He is going to court again on Wednesday. I told him I'd be thinking of him, so let's get the Buffista ~ma going strong for this little guy. He told me he read Charlie and the Chocolate Factory since last time and he liked it a lot.

I saw about 4 kids get released to their families' today. I hadn't seen that before either. Crying mothers, people taking pictures, kids grinning ear to ear. Let's hope we never see them in the 'hall again.