I want to not hate myself.

I want that, too.

Not for me, I mean; I want you to not hate yourself. Because there is no damn reason -- not even in your brain -- for you to hate yourself.

You'll get there, I promise.

YAY Raq in a house!

YAY Jars! OMG! I'd totally forgotten you're all married and shit! How is that??

Raq, the softball girls wear makeup to "prove" they're not big softball dykes. Same reason they all have long glossy ponytails.

And hugs to Tom, for good measure, and because most people shouldn't hate themselves. (I think some people should. Like George Bush. Or evil murderers. Tom is neither of those, AFAIK)

I want Tom to be as fond of himself as we are fond of him.

Actually, that goes for everyone I think is swell. I want them to see themselves the way I see them. They might go blind from the fantastic, though.

I want to not hate myself.

t squishes the heck out of Tom

If you could see even half of what I do you'd never hate yourself again.

I see no plausible reason for Tom to hate himself. And I worked in a lab! I know things!

Today is turning into a Day. I woke up to my period plus a sore throat that feels a bit like I have a fiery marble lodged in the right side of my larynx and the beginning of an earache on that side.

::whimpers::

And it's still COLD here. The thermometer outside says 68, but the inside of the house (very dark, very little natural sun -- not that the sun is really out today) is freezing.

t /pathetic whine

Thanks, everyone.

P-C, can you explain to me the Avatar rerun schedule on Nick and NickToons? It seems like every time they get about a third of the way through the second season, they start over again. I'm trying to watch the show, but they won't let me!

Man, the Avatar schedule is whack! I've been waiting MONTHS for them to show one stinkin' episode so that I can finish watching the ones I TiVoed. (Finally had to break down and get that one disc from Netflix...)

Tom, the Nick rerun schedule has confounded many. I appear to have been lucky in that I was able to catch most of the first season in reruns and then buy the DVDs before they started fucking with the schedule near the end. And then I caught up with the second season through other means because I was impatient.

I just finished watching the first season for the third time with a friend of mine (her first time). She has to wait till she comes back in November for me to show her the second season.

Do you have Netflix? They've been releasing the DVDs in separate discs, and I think the whole season is out by now. The box set will come with a bonus disc with special features.

Scola should not be hating on himself.

Here's a fond Scola memory to redress this situation: When I had my book reading at Quimby's in Chicago I arrived at the bookstore and Tom had flown out from NYC, unannounced, just to attend the reading. It was such a cool and welcome gesture of support and I was so happy to see him. And, as I've mentioned before, it was very funny to walk into Quimby's and not only see Tom there, but see him standing with erinaceous and they weren't talking but they were pointing their Treos at each other as Tom sent her a game.

I am always happy to see Tom, and I have a ton of respect for all the work he's put into therapy to root out his sadness and change his life. It is hard hard work, but even from the beginning when Tom came out to the first Chicago F2F, he's pushed himself because he wants more from his life. I love that about him.