Many sympathies, Suzi and L.
'War Stories'
Spike's Bitches 35: We Got a History
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I feel bad for feeling bad. I feel bad for worrying about the work. I am so tired of work stress.
Suzi, if you got this other job, would this stuff no longer be *your* work stress?
vw - Only the more human side and not the work side.
eta - I mean, I wouldn't be as directly responsible for the work - but I'd still stress over her health as a person.
Suzi, it's a perfectly legitimate way to feel. The situation can't be easy on you. Since you aren't taking it out on L (who sounds like she's trying to make the best of a bad situation), I for one won't criticize.
I feel bad for feeling bad. I feel bad for worrying about the work. I am so tired of work stress
When you're dealing with ongoing health issues, it's a constant drain on your energy. You brace yourself for the expected slog through treatment, and it makes unexpected hits a dozen times more disorienting.
And no matter how true all that is, it won't keep you from feeling bad for the times when you can't cope. Human nature is such a lovely thing.
I feel bad for feeling bad. I feel bad for worrying about the work. I am so tired of work stress.
Work is going to be tougher though without someone there who is able to give it her all. Certainly not her fault, but that doesn't ease your work burden.
Even before this latest blow, she was struggling with the work. She has lost a lot of her skills and her memory. Last week I gave her something that should have taken an hour, or an hour and a half - max. It took her 6 hours and this was something she had already been retrained on. That broke my heart.
Today? How do you break something that is already broken?
ugh. I just snapped at my dad for a totally innocuous comment. I feel bad. I apologized, but I still feel bad.
(((Suzi))) (((Vortex))) I'm sorry you guys.