JZ, I just discovered I get Monday off. (yes, I am a little slow about these things sometimes). Want me to do some swooping, and/or maybe take you out to lunch?

Not a bit your fault. Unless you're the kind of person who won't go to the doctor because of that one time Aunt Erma went in for a cold and found out she had cancer and DIED.

Seconded.

And really, when you're sleep deprived, you can't think the same. You just can't. I remember finally getting a week's worth of sufficient sleep when the babies got of an age, and being flabbergasted by how much more with it I was.

Do you and Hec split the night time feedings, at all?

((((JZ)))) I have no idea what that must be like with a baby, but have, from time to time been so stressed with life goings on that I have done some truly stupid, stupid things, and I don't even have the reason of night time feedings.

Lee, thanks, but we'll be driving back down from Tahoe and I'm not sure exactly when we'll be back.

Everyone told me about the sleep dep, and I thought I understood, but I didn't. Not a bit. I haven't slept the night through since last August. Christmas Eve, and one night last week, she only woke once during the night, but it's been 2-4 wakeups a night all the other nights. Since she was born.

My supervisor is trying to groom me for an admin position supporting the cardiac PICU director once my boss retires, a job with all kinds of fancy perks and great money and varied and interesting duties, and I'm gonna have to tell her NO. Just NO. I can't be a remotely competent parent and spouse and do that. Which makes me feel like ass; I have this vague idea that the world is full of high-powered lawyers who are back arguing cases before the Supreme Court at 6 weeks post-partum, and I can't get my shit together enough to order an extra key for my boss's office.

Aw JZ, I'm so sorry. But you know, shit happens, especially when you're tired and overwhelmed. Whem my family moved from Newfoundland to Cape Breton, I was only 3 months old. On the way to the ferry, my parents stopped into to say good-bye to my Aunt and Uncle. They they were very sad to leave, but they bundled the kids in the car, and they were on the road for 15-20 minutes before they realized that they left me behind.

I have this vague idea that the world is full of high-powered lawyers who are back arguing cases before the Supreme Court at 6 weeks post-partum,

Nuh uh. It's just not so. Also, high-powered lawyers have live-in nannies anyway.

In news about me, why oh why is my response to a semi-crisis at work to want to spend EVEN MORE TIME dicking around on the internets???

Oy, JZ. Parenting is hard. Props to you for doing it, and you know? Money mistakes suck. But you'll get past them, and Matilda is no worse off.

I think I smell. Another job just said "We really like you, but not for any position we have open." This time my resume isn't being passed to another department, it's being passed to a whole new company. But the passer is very optimistic!

There goes my #2 option.

Grr.

But, I have health insurance working and I have no headache. So I'm way ahead of yesterday. Now I gotta go forward my resume and stuff.

Another job just said "We really like you, but not for any position we have open."

You're just a unique flower, babe.

Sometimes I get woken up 2-3 times a night, but nobody expects me to, you know, actually get up and be a functional parent.

Which makes me feel like ass; I have this vague idea that the world is full of high-powered lawyers who are back arguing cases before the Supreme Court at 6 weeks post-partum, and I can't get my shit together enough to order an extra key for my boss's office.

You mean the ones who quite possibly have nannies to take care of some of the parenting and household stress? Who can probably afford to have somebody else whip up dinner so that neither they nor their high-powered husbands have to worry about that and can instead concentrate on their jobs/kiddie fun time/selves?

Probably not a fair comparison.

My supervisor is trying to groom me for an admin position supporting the cardiac PICU director once my boss retires, a job with all kinds of fancy perks and great money and varied and interesting duties, and I'm gonna have to tell her NO. Just NO. I can't be a remotely competent parent and spouse and do that.

When is your boss retiring? Because things aren't going to be like this forever -- Matilda *will* start sleeping through the night. Probably pretty soon, if what I hear about babies is true. And then once you can get some regular sleep, you'll be able to handle everything with ease.

So unless your boss is retiring this afternoon, please don't tell your supervisor no.