She shakes her head as if to clear her mind, and resumes talking like nothing happened. Gunn's responses grow shorter, but if Fred notices, Connor sees no sign.
"Who's up for dessert?" Fred's voice borders on shrill, and in the light of the lobby, what looked like normal enthusiasm in the darkness of the truck is revealed to be something almost manic.
Gunn shakes his head. "I'm beat, and besides, after stuffing myself at lunch and dinner, there's no room for it."
"Connor?"
"Sure. Dessert sounds great." He smiles broadly, which earns him another dirty look from Gunn.
***
Fred follows Charles to their room so she can bring the blueberries and vanilla ice cream down. She studs the scoops with patterns made of fruit, neat indigo bumps on off-white.
"I don't like the way he was looking at you." Charles isn't looking at her, he's looking out the window into the night sky, his back rigid and arms stuck stiffly in his pockets.
She can't believe what she's hearing. "Who, Connor?"
"Who else? Yeah, Connor." Charles laughs, but there's no humor in it.
"Charles, that's ridiculous. He's Angel's son." Who half a year ago was just a baby. A shudder passes through her so quickly she barely notices it; she doesn't like to think of everything about Connor that's changed, not when there's still baby clothes he never grew into tucked away downstairs.
"Angel's supernatural creepy teenaged son, more like." When he turns around, he looks troubled, more so than usual. "Fred, you can't keep pretending like he's normal, 'cause he ain't. You've been out on jobs with us; you've seen what he can do."
"Okay, granted, he's got super-human strength and speed, but he's still just a kid, Charles. He's lost both Holtz and Angel, and he was raised in a hell dimension; of course he's going to seem a little weird." It's not the first time they've had this talk, though it is the first time it's been about more than just watching each other's back when the three of them are out fighting.
"That kid is more than a little weird." It's just muttered to himself, though, not directed at her. Charles doesn't seem interested in talking about it anymore, so she takes the bowls down to where Connor's waiting.
It's Charles's fault she feels uneasy when he looks at her with eyes that are too big and too blue for his face. He's Angel's son, but he's also Darla's son. She doesn't like to think about that, either. Connor smiles at her and grabs his bowl. This is ridiculous, she reminds herself. Connor doesn't think of her that way. Connor doesn't think of anyone that way.
Little prickles of paranoia start to make their way up her spine. She eats rapidly, not tasting the ice cream or the fruit. He didn't mean anything by the way he touched her leg in the truck. It wasn't even on purpose. Charles is imagining things.
"What's wrong?" Connor takes another bite and keeps looking at her, not really blinking.
"It's nothing," she lies. "I'm just a little on edge from the fireworks and from the whole not finding Angel part of things."
***
They never seem to remember he can hear almost everything they say. He hears them upstairs, fighting about him again. Fred looks shaky as she walks down the stairs, two bowls in hand. He takes his from her, careful to avoid touching her, and asks her what's wrong as if he doesn't know.
Connor listens to Fred lie to him, tell him its nothing. Her heart is beating faster, and her breathing is shallow and irregular. She's fighting panic. Fred's pretty when she's panicking. Maybe that's why he likes to startle her.
"I liked the fireworks." That at least is the truth. "They were pretty. So are you." Her spoon stops midway to her mouth, and she looks like she wants to escape. "Gunn's very lucky."
The last part relaxes her, catches her off guard. "Thanks," she says slowly, the nervousness returning as his eyes remain on her. "It's getting late, I should clean up and go to bed."
She starts to leave, and he shoots a hand out to grab her wrist. "Stay. Tell me more about the fireworks." Fred's eyes dart back and forth as his thumb rubs over the pulse point he's found. "They've made you nervous, but you still like them. Why?"
Fred hesitates, but she sits back down when he drops his hand. She doesn't answer immediately. "Connor, are we still talking about fireworks?"
He deliberately misunderstands. "Of course. What else would we be talking about?" He knows that's all he needs to say to set her at ease. Fred will believe what she wants for as long as he'll let her.
"Nevermind, it's not important." She smiles at him, too wide and too cheerful for it to be real, and then talks more about chemistry and physics and the mechanics of explosives, going into great detail. He never knew they were so easy to make. It's a wonder that humans haven't blown each other to oblivion by now.
Connor says as much.
"Well, we're not all bad, you know."
He shrugs and pushes away his empty bowl, but her indignation makes him smile. "Yeah, I know. You and Gunn aren't. Cordelia wasn't. My father wasn't." He's not talking about Angel, but Fred doesn't need to know that. Connor goes out to the garden and waits to see if she'll follow him. She does.
Fred puts a hand on his shoulder. "We'll find him." She says the words so often that he thinks they've lost their meaning and turned into a chant or a prayer for her. "Somehow."
He sometimes worries that they will. If Justine talks to someone and word gets to Fred or Gunn, Angel could be freed, and his father's death will once more be unavenged. Connor can't let that happen. He turns and captures Fred's arms, looks in her eyes before pressing his mouth against hers. She tastes like milk and sugar, and their tongues touch before she breaks away, hand flying up to cover her mouth.
"Connor..." Eyes wide with shock, she backs away.
"I'm sorry." He's not. "I shouldn't have done that."
"No, you shouldn't have."
"Are you going to tell Gunn?"
She shakes her head. "Connor, you've got to promise me you'll never do something like that again. It's wrong."
"It won't happen again, I promise."
Fred nods and goes back into the hotel. Connor sits on a stone bench and listens to the sounds of night insects and passing cars. It won't happen again because he doesn't need it to. Once is enough to keep Fred nervous and on edge, enough to keep Gunn wondering what it is she's not telling him. Once is enough to distract them both while Connor cleans up loose ends and keeps his promise to his father from becoming just another lie.
Fred puts a hand on his shoulder. "We'll find him." She says the words so often that he thinks they've lost their meaning and turned into a chant or a prayer for her. "Somehow."
He sometimes worries that they will. If Justine talks to someone and word gets to Fred or Gunn, Angel could be freed, and his father's death will once more be unavenged. Connor can't let that happen. He turns and captures Fred's arms, looks in her eyes before pressing his mouth against hers. She tastes like milk and sugar, and their tongues touch before she breaks away, hand flying up to cover her mouth.
"Connor..." Eyes wide with shock, she backs away.
"I'm sorry." He's not. "I shouldn't have done that."
"No, you shouldn't have."
"Are you going to tell Gunn?"
She shakes her head. "Connor, you've got to promise me you'll never do something like that again. It's wrong."
"It won't happen again, I promise."
Fred nods and goes back into the hotel. Connor sits on a stone bench and listens to the sounds of night insects and passing cars. It won't happen again because he doesn't need it to. Once is enough to keep Fred nervous and on edge, enough to keep Gunn wondering what it is she's not telling him. Once is enough to distract them both while Connor cleans up loose ends and keeps his promise to his father from becoming just another lie.
(fin)
LJ, your Anya stories were really good, I enjoyed them.
Plei, oh how I do love your vision of Connor. I can see the wheels turning behind VK's eyes, and that sly little half-smile, the wide, fake-innocent eyes. Thanks for this.
Zipping in and out, because Deb needs her interferon shortly.
There was more, but Aud was mesmerized by the idea that something as small as this plant could create something as vast as justice.
Honey, that line is magic by itself. It's the basis of magic, especially cooking magic. I just love that.
Her head swum with the calls of dozens of wronged women.
I think swam?
I lovelovelove that last one. Xander instead of Anya...
Plei, you got Connor's little manipulabrainiac thing down, there. And I love the line about her tasting like milk and sugar.
I only just got home, and now me needs me meds, me does. Yarrgh.
Frank and Angelus in the Box- AKA Your Tax Dollars at Work. Not finished, because it's difficult.
"Mr. Angelus," Frank said."Forgive me for saying this, but you don't look like what I expected. You look like you should have a role on a soap opera, or be on the cover of those books, you know the ones...with the women's breasts spilling out of their dresses? My wife calls them her guilty pleasure. I tell her she shouldn't bother with them. But you know how women are, messing around with things that aren't good for them."
"Will this make things more comfortable for you, Detective?" His face changed, grew ridges, and his eyes turned yellow. For the first time, Frank felt relief at the cage separating himself and the dangerous suspect. He was shocked at the transformation, but contained his surprise.
The cage limited his pacing route, but he still made a small circuit. These bastards hated a moving target. He passed his pen from hand to hand and pretended to make notes. Suspects always wanted your undivided attention. It was better if you pretended not to give it to them.
"It's not my comfort I'm concerned with. I just like to keep my cards on the table, that's all. I would suggest keeping a human face on when my partner comes in here. He's kind of a nervous sort."
Angelus laughed, a short bark that Frank hated the sound of. "Does that ever work? That was an old bit when I got thrown in jail the first time, two hundred years ago."
"You'd be surprised. Most people that come in here aren't as experienced as you. You do know the point is not to get caught, though, right? You don't strike me as the brain-dead type. And I'm not saying Timmy would hurt you on purpose. But accidents do happen, especially when feelings are running high like they are now.Mostly, he's the kind of guy who would take bugs out rather than stomping them, but once in a while he takes things personally, makes it a mission. You and me, we're not like that. You know, I envy you."-more-
