Wow, Lyra, those are amazing!
Harmony ,'First Date'
Buffista Fic: It Could Be Plot Bunnies
Where the Buffistas let their fanfic creative juices flow. May contain erotica.
I really, really liked those a lot.
LJ, those were great. Love love love them.
He – he was the best of us
Nice resonance w/ Doppelgangland.
*exhales*
When y'all were quiet for half an hour, I was sure you were trying to find polite ways of telling me I sucked. I'm so glad that's not the case, and thanks for your praise.
Reading it on the board, I can see that the sentences are running a bit long, and I want to fiddle a bit with the third part -- Willow doesn't feel quite right. But in general, it was fun to write. I'm looking forward to finalizing it.
My sister in insecurity! But we've already covered that for today.
LJ -- I haven't been on the board all day. I just read it. And it's lurvely.
Whee, Rupert/Anya! And Randy and Joan! Whee!
Just wait until Rupert and Anya find out who Randy really is!
Snerk
Enjoyed it. Thank you for posting it/them.
Ah, fuckit.
I share the good with you, I can share the not-so-good.
Some of you heard me bitching about my Book of Days fic. Specifically, about my last-minute panic and how I wrote it all within 24 hours, because my original plan for it didn't work out.
So, I'm going to share it, with the caveat that it's already gone out, been published, served its purpose, and I'm not going to change it if and when I decide to archive it. It is what it is, for better or for worse.
BLACK SHEEP RUN
"Connor?" Fred's voice slides into the edges of his consciousness. He doesn't answer.
The film of grime on the window obscures an already-nondescript view, bleeding and dulling the reds and oranges of the sunset and twisting the shape of the palm trees. If he lets his focus slip for half a second, it almost looks like home.
She continues, her voice earnest and pained. He can hear the steady beating of her heart, the occasional catch of her breath between words. "We'll find him."
Forces a lie past his lips. "I know. Thank you."
"I made you a sandwich." She sets the plate down with a dull thud.
"Bologna and mustard, but you used sourdough this time." Connor catches the slight shift in her scent as his words sink in. That's why he said them, after all. Gunn wears his unease openly. Not Fred. Fred tries to hide it under sweet words and sandwiches.
It's no fun reminding Gunn what he is, or, more accurately, what he isn't--normal, human. Fred's another story. He turns and smiles, innocent and guileless, and just another lie. She returns it, hesitating at first, and rushes from the room, babbling excuses.
The sandwich is good; he can still smell her touch on the crust when he bites into it. Fred told him she spent five years in a hell dimension; she was trying to show him they had something in common. Connor looks out the window again, and wonders what it would be like to have a home he'd miss. Home as a place of comfort is an alien concept.
***
Angel has been missing for nearly a month. So has Cordelia.
At first she tried to tell herself they'd gone off together, but they wouldn't, not without a word. She checks Cordelia's apartment twice a week, and tries to comfort Dennis while fighting her growing suspicion that something really awful has happened. Most nights, she and Connor and Charles go out looking for some clue as to their whereabouts. But almost a month with no word, nowhere to start...
Fred looks at the phone. They've talked about this. They're not going to bring him into it. They've agreed. Of course, talking sounded more like fighting, and agreement more like Charles issuing an ultimatum. But Charles is off talking to some of his old contacts, and they're running out of options.
She dials the number with shaky fingers, tells him everything in a rush and waits for his response.
It's not what she'd hoped for.
"I don't see what you expect me to do about it," Wesley says, and hangs up. She thinks he sounded a little more cordial than cold. Somehow, that makes it worse.
When Charles gets back, she tells him about the phone call.
He swears under his breath. "I thought we'd agreed we weren't telling him."
"We need Angel, and Wesley's our best chance at finding him. Or would be, if he still cared enough to help." The last part comes out sounding more plaintive than she intended it to, and Charles narrows his eyes. "Any luck tonight?" Changing the subject seems like a good idea.
Or not. "No. Nobody's seen or heard anything, and even if they had, I'm gettin' the feeling that I'd be about the last person they'd tell." He sounds tired and frustrated; she can't blame him.
When they go up to bed, they don't talk or touch. It's worse than fighting, she thinks. Fighting feels temporary. This feels like something she can't fix, maybe because she's not sure what's broken. She waits until she can tell Charles is asleep, then goes downstairs to what used to be Wesley's office and goes back to making charts about everything and anything they've managed to learn.
Her fingers are itching to write things down and make them real again. Excep t she doesn't want them to be real, not if they're going to be like this. Tension and missing bosses and friends who turn on you. It's better than Pylea, but it's still not good.
***
Connor marks time by the changes of the moon and what Fred has brought him for dinner. He doesn't think anything of it; it's not far from how they marked the passage of time when he was growing up. Three days after she made the sandwich with sourdough, he goes to find Justine.
She's gone. He pockets a discarded knife and takes a look around.
A picture of his father sits on top of her dresser, next to pictures of Justine and an identical girl. He picks it up and stares at it. Whispers to it, seeking answers. "I've remembered what you taught me, Father. Angelus has been punished for what he did. Now what?" But the picture is just an image of something that no longer exists, a lie captured on paper. His father cannot answer his questions. No one can.
He throws the picture across the room. The frame shatters in a crunch of wood and glass, and for a moment he feels a dull throb of satisfaction. The feeling passes quickly, leaving nothing in its wake. Justine's scent is a few days old, and he loses it within a block. His father would be ashamed of him.
Before he returns to the hotel, he hunts. This, he knows, would have made his father proud. But the thin layer of dust that covers him by the time he gets to the Hyperion leaves him no closer to content than did shattering the picture frame.
A peanut butter sandwich is waiting in his room, along with a glass of still-cold milk. He puts his weapons down, drinks the milk, and seeks out Fred.
Fred smells like oranges and earth, so tracking her is easy. She's in the room off the lobby, reading and making notes. He watches her, slowly chewing his sandwich. When she doesn't think anyone is looking, she shimmers with nervousness and fear, reminding him of a trapped animal. Sharp teeth gnaw on the edge of a pencil, and on the edge of her knuckles when she's writing.