It's worth it. I can remember when she first started this stuff... Damn, it was forever ago. But we kinda joked around until it became the DE -- Damned Epic. And then she started Route 66 -- Imposters in this Country -- as a little sidelined PWP from a list challenge. And then that ate her brain.

It was fun to watch.

I'm still stuck with my moral dilemma---if Xander realizes he's attracted to Spike then he should know what would happen if he puts on the Jacket. If he puts on the jacket then my hyena bit, I'm not sure how to work that in.

Hmmm... Hmmm.... Hmmm....

You watch Firefly, yes? I'd love it to be Xander not putting on the jacket because he knows that fucking Spike would be wrong, so he doesn't because he wants to do the right thing... But then he kisses Spike because, hey, he's not perfect. And them maybe a little bit of frottage because he's really just an okay guy.

Heh. But I digress.

It's not so much putting on the jacket that's bad, it's kissing spike or frottage or all of it that is bad. Because it's Spike and Xander hate Spike for being a vampire and he hates him more for having sex with Anya and hurting Buffy. And he's letting Spike STAY in his apartment because Buffy asked and maybe Xander's afraid of where Buffy might let Spike live if he said no.

But then there's that big temptation in the house all the time. And this is working off the theory that Xander actually knows that he's attracked to Spike. Which I think he does, I think it's moved way past the sublimination stage.

I have myself so firmly talked into no Spike and Xander ever that I can't even write it. At least not for any storyline following canon after Spike and Anya had sex.

At least not for any storyline following canon after Spike and Anya had sex.

You could be Jossed, but I'd say that the writers have purposefully started to reintroduce elements of William into newly-souled Spike. That could be an entrance. Spike could let down his spike-iness, and Xander could respond to the loser that Spike once was. Not so different from Xander's romantic teen self.

You know, they don't have to have sex. Because you are right. And it is hard for me to see them doing anything now, after all that has happened. It's why I don't see Xander/Angel - there's too much history. And before last year Xander knew that Spike was evil, etc, but it had never really touched him and his. But I think that the realisation of the attraction, that Xander acknowledges it, is a very important bit of character developement - the graying of Xander. So I'm okay with the no sex. Mostly.

I know they don't have to ahve sex, and I think that's where I'm goign with this. No sex for Xander, even though he knows he's attracted to Spike and wants him, because he doesn't like Spike, because he doesn't want to become Spike.

Very good. Nice and grayish, I think. Or at least off-white.

It's worth it. I can remember when she first started this stuff... Damn, it was forever ago. But we kinda joked around until it became the DE -- Damned Epic. And then she started Route 66 -- Imposters in this Country -- as a little sidelined PWP from a list challenge. And then that ate her brain.

It was not forever ago! It was just, umm. Late June! So, you know, only kind of forever ago.

It was fun to watch.

Mmm... Spicy brains! I think the top sign when something has eaten my brain is when I'm wandering around the house thinking about other things, and suddenly, I'm dashing to the computer and typing. Fucking brains. I miss them.

I'd say that the writers have purposefully started to reintroduce elements of William into newly-souled Spike.

I so totally called that. Hahahahaha!

I can't wait to read askye's story. Panting with eager, here.

And he's letting Spike STAY in his apartment because Buffy asked and maybe Xander's afraid of where Buffy might let Spike live if he said no.

Oh, I really like that interpretation. It makes a lot of sense.