Illyria: Wesley's dead. I'm feeling grief for him. I can't seem to control it. I wish to do more violence. Spike: Well, wishes just happen to be horses today.

'Not Fade Away'


Spike's Bitches 33: Weeping, crawling, blaming everybody else  

[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risque (and frisque), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.


vw bug - Dec 28, 2006 3:59:07 am PST #7674 of 10004
Mostly lurking...

Aww, vw, I skipped shamelessly, so I don't know what your situation is, but I so feel for you, especially wanting your puppy. Dammit, you should have your puppy. Something must be done.

It's not so bad...certainly not nearly as bad as some of the Bitches. I'm in Kansas at my bro and SIL's house, with my whole family. It's just been kind of long, and I'm ready to go home. It's been good, though. It's fine.

It's great to "see" you katefate!


katefate - Dec 28, 2006 4:14:11 am PST #7675 of 10004
Frail my heart apart and play me a little Shady Grove

vw, I'm relieved it's a holiday-related missing-of-the-puppy. Less trauma and definitely finite.

It's good to see you, too. There's picture of you and me at SFF2F that makes me smile; something about too much candy. And the one of Brenda and me with the beer bottles.

See, I was thinking of all y'all, even when I couldn't communicate with anyone but the shrink. I'm feeling much better now.


SailAweigh - Dec 28, 2006 4:20:53 am PST #7676 of 10004
Nana korobi, ya oki. (Fall down seven times, stand up eight.) ~Yuzuru Hanyu/Japanese proverb

I'm feeling much better now.

That is very, very good to hear. It sucks when Bitches are hurting and cut off.


brenda m - Dec 28, 2006 4:21:38 am PST #7677 of 10004
If you're going through hell/keep on going/don't slow down/keep your fear from showing/you might be gone/'fore the devil even knows you're there

Kate! Miss you, babe. Glad to hear you've got good things happening.


vw bug - Dec 28, 2006 4:25:58 am PST #7678 of 10004
Mostly lurking...

There's picture of you and me at SFF2F that makes me smile; something about too much candy.

Yes, that's a very good picture.

See, I was thinking of all y'all, even when I couldn't communicate with anyone but the shrink. I'm feeling much better now.

I'm so glad! It's no fun feeling icky.


katefate - Dec 28, 2006 4:38:47 am PST #7679 of 10004
Frail my heart apart and play me a little Shady Grove

Brenda! Congrats on leaving the soul-sucking job! Are you still downtown? What became of your minion? I know you were concerned about his fate.

Depression really, really sucks. There was a dark period when the only question I was pursuing in therapy was "What's the point?" Then the I met up with an old dear cyberfriend, and the lightbulb flashed on! For me, the connection is the point. And I had gradually been cut off from people who are important to me - some out of my control, some I did to myself. Only a few months ago I believed that all the good things I would ever experience had already happened. It didn't make any sense to me, yet that's exactly how I felt. Hoo-wee was I wrong.

I wish I could slice this feeling up and share it around with everyone.


Topic!Cindy - Dec 28, 2006 4:43:18 am PST #7680 of 10004
What is even happening?

Cindy, my comment was inspired by one simple line in PC's lj that he linked to upthread.
Yes. I read it right after I posted. I was hoping for some secret Pam we'd known nothing about although I understand the love of the Pam he meant.

I wish I'd gotten more sleep last night. But it sure was fun hanging out here. I gave up way too much to depression, not least Buffistas.

It's such a thief, isn't it? I'm so glad you're feeling well enough to post with us! I didn't realize that's why you were gone. I just figured you found new internet friends and didn't love us no more.

I had a series of battles with my anxiety/agoraphobia yesterday, but I pretty much won them all, I think. I'm going to put it in my lj, in a few minutes.


Amy - Dec 28, 2006 5:03:06 am PST #7681 of 10004
Because books.

katefate! It's so good to see you here!

Greetings, all. I'm still in the post-holiday daze, surrounded by the kids' new toys and the remnants of Christmas cookies. It's back to work (writing) today for me, but at least I can do it in my jammies if I please.


Topic!Cindy - Dec 28, 2006 5:42:07 am PST #7682 of 10004
What is even happening?

A few minutes. An hour. Whatever. Cindy 3 -- Anxiety 0 [link]

Amy, you know how the expectation used to be that women wear a lot of restrictive clothing, whether or not they wanted to, and that they'd never wear trousers in public? You know how that relaxed, to the point where there are even trouser-options in women's formal-wear? You know how women can wear jeans, and even sweats, to any number of public places, now?

I think we need to start a movement to relax the standard once again, such that jammies become acceptable public attire. Wanna start a movement?


Nora Deirdre - Dec 28, 2006 5:45:18 am PST #7683 of 10004
I’m responsible for my own happiness? I can’t even be responsible for my own breakfast! (Bojack Horseman)

Bah, just got word that my grandmother was in the hospital since Saturday with a heart problem. She is OK now, though, it seems, and will be released today.

I feel a bit flail-y and proto-sick. Am at work but I think I'll be leaving soon and be sick tomorrow too.