Angel: I appreciate you guys looking out for Connor all summer. It's just—he's confused. He needs time. That's all. Fred: Right. Time, and some corporal punishment with a large heavy mallet. Not that I'm bitter.

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deborah grabien - Sep 05, 2004 10:29:44 pm PDT #6398 of 10001
It really doesn't matter. It's just an opinion. Don't worry about it. Not worth the hassle.

True.

This one's self-explanatory. We have a killer version of it on tape, but alas, I basically melt down at the end. Not easy for me to sing without melting down. It's in D-modal tuning. It was written in 1977 or thereabouts.

Ghosts

At the edge of a couple of vodka and limes
I am spinning out reasons and offering rhymes
and the alleys that run from the stage to the door
are built for the dead man and lit for the poor

And brown-eyes, oh brown-eyes, where the hell did you go
where the hell have you gone
why in hell don't I know?
And I would like the answer to a question or two
How in hell can I possibly go on without you?

In the back room, the boys crack a bottle and sing
and the radio's going while the telephone rings - it keeps on ringing
and it isn't my problem and it isn't my cue
but the whole conversation is centred on you

Such as: brown-eyes, oh brown-eyes, that mad little man
with the smile that bewitched and the lopsided hands
and they don't like to ask me but they do want to know
where the hell has he gone? Where in hell did he go?

And the gallery's haunted, appeasing your shade
and the rafters still shaking from the notes that got played
we both tried to repair it, we both tried to please
but the dust is still falling on the black and white keys

and brown-eyes, oh brown-eyes I still can't believe
that I'd pick up and go, that you'd pack up and leave
with the distance between us, as you leave me behind
I am fractured and broken, in the darkness, and blind.

And the ghost in my room is the ghost in my eyes
and they say that a rose without water eventually dies (eventually, supposedly)
And the renaissance woman, the study in blue
is the woman whose dreams were all locked up in you

and brown-eyes, I'd give everything that I own
just to taste your tequila slip soft through the phone
But alone with my anger, I'll tie one more on
and pretend I'm alive
when I know that you're gone.


Beverly - Sep 05, 2004 10:47:45 pm PDT #6399 of 10001
Days shrink and grow cold, sunlight through leaves is my song. Winter is long.

Oh my. That's heartbreaking. And intense. And beautiful.


Topic!Cindy - Sep 06, 2004 2:21:58 am PDT #6400 of 10001
What is even happening?

Oh, deb.


Deena - Sep 06, 2004 6:24:30 am PDT #6401 of 10001
How are you me? You need to stop that. Only I can be me. ~Kara

Oh, lovely Deb, both of them. That last one is heart-wrenching.


deborah grabien - Sep 06, 2004 7:59:33 am PDT #6402 of 10001
It really doesn't matter. It's just an opinion. Don't worry about it. Not worth the hassle.

Yep. The heart definitely had a bend in it when I wrote that. Next lyrics up will be "Zoo in Heaven", another pissy little song about rock and roll. I sense a theme in my own history. And I love this thread, I do, even though it occurs to me I may be using it in a way that's rather uncomfortably close to creative masturbation, at the moment.

Teppy, new topic today?


Steph L. - Sep 06, 2004 8:08:06 am PDT #6403 of 10001
I look more rad than Lutheranism

You know, I was just thinking about that!

I think I am going to go with the bells, bells, bells, bells, bells, bells, bells.

So, challenge #21 (group of people looking down) is closed.

Challenge #22: bells. Silver, Southern, Jingle -- whatever. Have at it!


Amy - Sep 06, 2004 8:20:20 am PDT #6404 of 10001
Because books.

Oh God, Deb, "Ghosts" is just heartbreaking. I'd love to hear this one sung, but it reads beautifully right here like this.

Oooh, bells. Off to think.


deborah grabien - Sep 06, 2004 8:36:53 am PDT #6405 of 10001
It really doesn't matter. It's just an opinion. Don't worry about it. Not worth the hassle.

Notre Dame, 1990

"Chacun doit partir de la tour de cloche, s'il vous plait."

I took my time. Paris was bathed in sunlight, mist rising off the Seine. From up here, the City of Light was mine.

"Chacun doit partir...."

Halfway down the narrow ancient stairway, I understood the danger.

The first bells shook the building, deep-voiced, plangent, angry - a fist to the skull. I covered my ears, tried to run.

The carillon took my feet out from under me. Sitting hard, I bumped down three flights.

Safe in the nave, I blotted blood from my nose, wondering how Quasimodo had survived.


deborah grabien - Sep 06, 2004 9:21:24 am PDT #6406 of 10001
It really doesn't matter. It's just an opinion. Don't worry about it. Not worth the hassle.

The Cruelest Month

I don't like September.

September, for me, is the month of loss, heartbreak, tragedy, bad news. The year begins its march toward the darkness of winter, the sun begins a retreat, my life falls apart.

Eve died in September; three years old, falling off a high hill. It left me crippled for 18 months, that fall; it left her gone.

My father lost his leg in September, a blood clot, thrombosis, the long slide into death too soon.

N died in September, and history stopped and began again.

September, to me, is bad history, sweet bells jangling out of tune.


erikaj - Sep 06, 2004 12:28:10 pm PDT #6407 of 10001
Always Anti-fascist!

Inspired by recent events:
It takes a second because the doorbell doesn’t ring.My house has electrical gremlins. But the dogs woof and let me know that somebody’s out there. I’m silly and wish I’d made up my face. My God, this is so generous, I expect my brother to come out of somewhere yelling “Psych!”. He always did think that game was funnier than I did. He’s a better bullshitter than me and always knew to put in stuff just weird enough to be real. I’ve won a game show. With smut. And hosts you might really want to kiss. The check’s here.