So I feel kind of bad about its not being humanly possible for me to make my last deadline.

DO NOT FEEL BAD!

So I feel kind of bad about its not being humanly possible for me to make my last deadline.

Well, unless you have an ascension in the works, human is all you have to work with. You'll do your best. No bad feelings.

DO NOT FEEL BAD!

I can't help it! I'm running behind! There's too much, and there's too little time, and I have too many standards to just half-ass it all and say I'm done. I've got to give it at least a 7/8-ass try.

P-C, I have been where you are, and all I can say is, work 15 hour days without a break for weeks on end, if you must, to get the job done. But do NOT beat yourself up for not doing more than is HUMANLY POSSIBLE. You are human. There are limits. The limits are a little tighter once you get into a 80-100 hor workweek without any breaks, but do not assume that the work would be better or easier if you were doing more or doing it better. If you did more work, there'd be even more work after that. That's all there is.

Signed, bought a house with OT money from last summer.

(was it worth it? Well, I have a house. But that has its own stresses. And honestly, I've never recovered from that work pace, which is one of the reasons I knew I had to move on from this job. I did it, by whatever means necessary, and I did it WELL, but it takes a toll.)

It's just a job. It's not my life. And the anxiety I got for 6 months straight without a break wasn't worth it.

It's just a job.

Felicitations on the Anniversary of your Natal Day, Jaqueline! And many happy returns of the day.

Hugs as needed to P-C, K-bug, Suzi, Cass (oops, too hot for hugs, right?), and any others.

I have a dentist's appointment in (checks watch) 55 minutes. Don' wanna go.

Happies to JZ!

Stats officially got hard last night. I was still able to understand with some mental effort but I've got some serious studying to do tonight. Argh! Also, I was supposed to have a test tomorrow night but it got pushed to Monday, which is July 3rd, the day before July 4th. I don't have to work but I have to go to school? No fair! Also, feeling old due to young cute coeds in my class. There's one young woman (early 20s, I'd guess) who is so me at that age - black shoulder-length bob, 60s type style. Also with skinny body. I miss that. Ah well. 36 ain't so old, right? RIGHT???

Signed, bought a house with OT money from last summer.

I'm going to buy a digital camera. Finally. I'll still have lots of money left over after that, but that is one thing I can finally buy. I will ask for recommendations soon enough.

And honestly, I've never recovered from that work pace, which is one of the reasons I knew I had to move on from this job. I did it, by whatever means necessary, and I did it WELL, but it takes a toll.)

Yeah, I really can't take this much longer, so I hope July is better. Especially because I need to find a frelling apartment, and I've had NO TIME this month.

I also feel weird complaining because I know there are people who work this many hours regularly. I wonder if they cough a lot, too.

36 ain't so old, right? RIGHT???

RIGHT!

From 39, 36 looks downright immature, infantile, even. Are you sure you should be talking to strangers on the internet, little one?

I also feel weird complaining because I know there are people who work this many hours regularly.

I do not know how people do it, and this was another tool that I would bash myself with last summer. (I bet you can find archived posts with my panic). I would always think, "what's the matter with me? why do *I* suck? Other people can keep up this pace, what's the matter with me?" I just got to a point, after the crisis passed, and realized that different people have different strengths. Some people thrive on that kind of pressure. Some people, sadly, have no choice but to do so. But I had a choice, and I knew how damaging that kind of workload and anxiety was, and I learned from it, and applied what I learned with how I want to live my life.