I hate to say it, but that's why I bailed out of teaching. And why you are kind of my idol for sticking with it.

I doubt it's your fault, though. This is the class you took over from another sub, right?

The, uh, good (?) news is that you get to go back tomorrow for another shot, right?

This is the class you took over from another sub, right?

Yeah. Which makes me feel a little better than if it was one of the classes that's really mine... but not really, because I also feel like I never got control of the class and that contributed to my not being able to handle it afterward (honestly, I'm not sure there was anything I could have done to stop it in the first place -- one of the participants isn't even in the class, and I have no idea what happened).

The, uh, good (?) news is that you get to go back tomorrow for another shot, right?

Hahahahahahahhhhhhhh

Yes. Also, it's the last class of the day on a Friday, so in addition to the trying to leave before the bell rings they do normally, tomorrow they may start trying to sneak out halfway through class. Dammit. Two more days I have to deal with them, and then the final. I was really hoping to make it through without it blowing up.

lock the door.

Good luck with that, Emily.

Well you have the option of being a total hardass for the last two days. You also have the option of not caring anymore. Somewhere on the continuum between those two will probably work out OK. That might even be provable.

Stuff on Stephen Hawking: [link]

I found this interesting:

Hawking was asked why his computerized voice has an American accent.

"The voice I use is a very old hardware speech synthesizer made in 1986," he said. "I keep it because I have not heard a voice I like better and because I have identified with it."

He said he once considered using a machine that gave him a French accent, but he did not because his wife would divorce him.

Hawking said he is shopping for a new system because his current hardware is large and fragile, using components that are no longer made. "I have been trying to get a software version, but it seems very difficult," he said.

How weird must it be to have to pick out your own voice? and to not be able to find the voice you like due to hardware obsolescence? Of course, what he didn't say was that everyone else associates that voice with him, and how weird it would feel for people if he changed it....

You know, I won't need to rent Beaches in order to clear out this tear duct. All I need to do is keep job-searching for another hour and I'll be crying like the baby Jesus reading badfic.

Coming from the other side of the job-searching thing (we're hiring), I totally feel your pain.

But I think that they have to be sad tears. Sad tears are loose. Tears of frustration just seem tight to me. Does this make any sense at all?

It seems like somethings that look rather skanky on someone with an average chest, often look rather unskanky on larger chested women . And it isn't that less real estate is visible, in fact more usually is, it's just less provocative somehow.

As someone who is flat chested, I tend to agree, except I'd say that some necklines just look more attractive on a larger bosom and some look better on a smaller one.