I might be too chagrined to admit the actual show... There was bad tv ending (make it a series finale and I am as putty in your bad writing hands with the emotional bits) and my tv watched it for me and I got sucked into the whole drama.

I was whelmed with the *DMIs

*During Menstrual Ickies

I am giving up on the whole today thing and try to sleep. Not that I am sleepy, but I think tomorrow might be better. And less meloncholy. Also it is technically tomorrow so I should be asleep, technically.

Though I got my haircut today so it is cute and smells all Aveda and yummy.

I am an ass that a stupid show can push my life buttons this way. I really ought to get over such things. I have tea and yet I am still a sniveling mess... It's sad. Just that I am hella ThinkyTooMuchBrainGirl tonight.

OH MY FUCKING GOD I AM A TOTAL UTTER FUCKING FUCKWIT FROM THE PLANET FUCKTARD AND I DON'T DESERVE TO FUCKING BREATHE!!!!!

Today is June 7th.

My mother's birthday is....

....June 1st.

bangs head on desk for ever and ever and ever and ever.

So. Totally. Fucked. Up.

And yes, she will forgive me, and will not be Emotional Blackmail Woman. And that really, REALLY is not the point.

I am 32 years old. Her birthday is on the same frigging day EVERY FUCKING YEAR. How can I possibly have forgotten it?

t utter and entirely merited self contempt.

And I only REALISE THIS because my little sister has emailed me to mention it. A week after the event. And it is NOT her job to remind me of my parents' birthdays Every. Fucking. Time. Because of the part where I am a grownup.

My God. Shame on me. Shame on me. Shame on me.

Only apparently it IS her job, because, see, I DID FORGET THE ONE TIME SHE DIDN'T REMIND ME.

Sorry. Sorry. No more cereal. Just - I am so deeply disappointed in myself, and I can't do a fucking thing to undo it, and I'm just CRINGING at the prospect of trying to make it up to her A WEEK AFTER THE EVENT.

Shame on me.

Oh, Fay...

Yikes?

Glad that she will forgive. And, from what I know, you love and adore her and think that she is many kinds of wonderful, so she will obviously forgive you...

Makes my weepy over the stupid Everwood show seem kinda dumb. As did my stupid watching the end of the show actually.

Send a lovely note and maybe some flowers?

Also my parents had to put my grandma's dog, Bernie, to sleep today.

When gram died, they adopted her two Golden Retrievers along with the two they already had. Bernie was recently diagnosed with cancer as well and they had to let him go today.

I know this is hard for my stepmom because this was her mom's dog that we got gram before we lost my grandpa, when we knew he was dying, for company. It's one of her last tangible holds to her mom's life.

I am glad she had Bernie for all of these years. And I am glad we had Bernie for all of this time.

I have the sniffles.

Go, Hil! You can do it!

Kristin, how absolutely frustrating!

{{{amych}}} My heart is aching for you all.

{{{Cass}}}

{{{Fay}}}

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ION, I SLEPT! I still feel like I was hit by a truck, but I slept! All night! 9 hours!

Can I go back to bed?

You can go back to bed. It's what I am doing. It is what all the cool kids are doing.

Nope. Have to go to class. Stupid class.

Also, must get in shower. But, I haven't had enough coffee yet!