"Not just no, but fuck no."
Which was pretty much my reaction that started this conversation, and I'm standing by it.
Dawn ,'Beneath You'
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"Not just no, but fuck no."
Which was pretty much my reaction that started this conversation, and I'm standing by it.
I am reading a book on exercize. That's, like, a step in the right direction, right?
That totally counts.
I told my mother I would meet her at noon at her place. That is so not going to happen. I am just having my first few sips of tea and I'm not dressed yet. The past few nights I have fallen asleep in front of the TV, which I never do. So tired.
Sweet, sweet validation. Thanks, sj.
Cost and distance is why I didn't go to my 7.5 year reunion - which was an unofficial event organized by a girl who didn't even graduate from my school. If Wonderfalls had existed by then, I might have been tempted to go see if anyone got destroyed.
I need lots of people to lie to me and tell me everything will work out ok...that I'm going to have a wonderful life, filled with promise, love, success, and happiness...that this is just a bump in the road, and soon I will be back on track, even though nothing seems to be going right or turning in the right direction any time soon.
vw, you've succeeded SO many times with challenge after challenge.
It sucks that you have yet another.
I don't doubt for a second that you will, yet again, be victorious.
{{vw}} you will get through this. I know it's hard to see now, but this awfullness will eventually pass. You are working hard to make it so, and eventually it will pay off. It will. And you will find happiness, probably in places and ways you can't even imagine right now.
You just have to keep moving forward.
{{vw}}
I'm not going to lie to you, vw. Everything *is* going to work out okay. You're smart, you're kind and you have people who love you. You're working hard on your problems, not curled up in a ball somewhere. I have been to some very low places, but I'm here and relatively content and successful.
oh, yeah, I forgot to mention that what I said wasn't a lie either.
{{{vw}}} It will be ok. You are one of the strongest people I have ever met, and you will find a way to deal with all of this. I am always amazed at how strong you are. Also, you have a lot of good people in your life, doctors, friends, and family, who are there for you. You can do this.
not curled up in a ball somewhere.
I'm afraid that very soon, that's exactly what I'll be doing. I'm just not holding on very well. Soon, the ball is gonna win.