{{{{MG}}}} Sorry, sweetie. i'm so sorry.
Darn your sinister attraction!
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juliana - Mar 07, 2006 6:44:41 am PST #2673 of 10001
I’d be lying if I didn’t say that I miss them all tonight…
Lee - Mar 07, 2006 6:44:51 am PST #2674 of 10001
The feeling you get when your brain finally lets your heart get in its pants.
I am so sorry, MG. I wish there were a magic wand to make C realize how much she is giving up, but hopefully some of what you've given her will stick.
SuziQ - Mar 07, 2006 6:45:21 am PST #2675 of 10001
Back tattoos of the mother is that you are absolutely right - Ame
Well, juliana. The house will be much quieter, that is for sure.
§ ita § - Mar 07, 2006 6:47:06 am PST #2676 of 10001
Well not canonically, no, but this is transformative fiction.
Don't dwell on "used," Maidengurl. Just because it's all going pear-shaped now doesn't mean that your love and support wasn't of value to C. Of course it hurts you terribly. But better she was cared for you by a little rather than not at all.
lisah - Mar 07, 2006 6:47:21 am PST #2677 of 10001
Punishingly Intricate
oh MG. I'm so sorry.
Trudy Booth - Mar 07, 2006 6:48:47 am PST #2678 of 10001
Greece's financial crisis threatens to take down all of Western civilization - a civilization they themselves founded. A rather tragic irony - which is something they also invented. - Jon Stewart
It's not petty to feel that way. It might be petty to act that way (it might not be, I'm sure you'll make the right call).
Maybe try (for your own good as much as hers or anyone elses) to remind youreself that you are coming at this from a place of love. You aren't acting out of cruelty or spite, you are doing the best you can for the people you love. You can remind them of that even.
Lee - Mar 07, 2006 6:53:18 am PST #2679 of 10001
The feeling you get when your brain finally lets your heart get in its pants.
Don't dwell on "used," Maidengurl. Just because it's all going pear-shaped now doesn't mean that your love and support wasn't of value to C. Of course it hurts you terribly. But better she was cared for you by a little rather than not at all.
What she said.
Calli - Mar 07, 2006 6:55:53 am PST #2680 of 10001
I must obey the inscrutable exhortations of my soul—Calvin and Hobbs
I'm sorry things didn't work out well, MG. I'm glad you were able and willing to try to be there for C, but I'm sorry she wasn't able to meet you there.
Nora Deirdre - Mar 07, 2006 6:59:15 am PST #2681 of 10001
I’m responsible for my own happiness? I can’t even be responsible for my own breakfast! (Bojack Horseman)
Maidengurl, my heart breaks for you, and K-Bug, and C. I think you absolutely and completely did the right thing- and I share your relief that this happened before the guardianship. I am sure that your temporary guardianship did help her, and will continue to help her. You showed her a different way, a healthy way and that will stay with her and guide her as she continues down her own path. Someday she will learn that she cannot run away from every unpleasantness, and perhaps this particular situation may start this process, sooner or later.
I'm so sorry that your own trust was violated and that you feel used. Peace to you and your family this week. I hope you get some rest soon.
SuziQ - Mar 07, 2006 7:00:04 am PST #2682 of 10001
Back tattoos of the mother is that you are absolutely right - Ame
C and I are supposed to get togethr today after school to talk. Last night I had said that one of my biggest problems with the way this has played out is that C has not talked to me, just her and me, about any of this.
We will see what happens. I had also said she could have her phone until Wednesday, but I cut if off this morning. Originally, I thought she would be staying with us for the next few days, but then she bailed.
The whole lying thing that started this off is where I feel the most used and made out as a fool. More than her running away. By leaving, she is proving the point that she has not reached a certain maturity level. I know she does not have the same mental tools at her disposal as K-Bug has, but this could have been a chance for her to learn them and really grow from the experience. Instead, she has shifted her life in reverse and slammed on the gas.