slide into a bad place depression wise, and when that happens I tend to hide here, constantly refreshing the page to see if there are new messages, so that I don't have to deal.

I do this too. You're probably doing the right thing taking a break. Congratulations for having the self-discipline to do it. It's not easy. I hope you feel better.

Could someone e me if Cash has the baby, so that I am not tempted to constantly come here to check?

I'm not here as often as some others but I'd be glad to be on call for the job if no one else volunteers. Take care of you, bebe. {{{you}}}

After college? Still feel like I'm a bit in this phase, though the calendar would say I lie. But immediately after? I did my first disability rights protest. Almost got arrested, but kind of punked out.

sj, take care of yourself. I can e you from my cell phone or text or call you personally if you would like.

You dorks better start saving up your money if you want your asses beat....

::starts counting money in spare change jar::

I'm going to take a week away from the board.

As has been said, take care of you! {{{sj}}}

I am, for the first time since my Big Career Crisis of nearly two years ago (just before discovering b.org, actually), experiencing pretty regular anxiety.

I blame my decision to start pursuing a personal education on Judaism in a serious, focused way.

I'm scared. Scared of all there is to learn. Scared that I'll eventually choose to go through with it, and commit my life to this big, strange thing. Scared that I'll choose NOT to go through with it, and sign the death warrant on the best relationship of my life. Scared that Rabbis will yell at me or generally be scary. Scared of... all manner of things.

I just started my student teaching today. I should be scared about that! But no. No room.

Scared that Rabbis will yell at me or generally be scary

You don't have to worry about rabbis yelling at you gris. It's the tentacles and razor sharp fangs you have to watch out for.

You don't have to worry about rabbis yelling at you gris. It's the tentacles and razor sharp fangs you have to watch out for.

And the laser beams! The laser beams they shoot from their eyes! And they'll cover you with hair spray!

Oh, wait. That last part is the Rabbot. Forget I said anything.

Can you put the question of end results aside enough to focus on the learning? I know that your situation with GG is what inspired you to study in the first place, and it makes the whole question of your eventual conversion (or not) seem pretty urgent, and I don't want to sound either unrealistic or pollyanna-ish when I say "just do it for the love of study!" But don't think of it all in terms of cramming for a test, so much as exploring something strange and big and cool and frequently kerfuffly and (again) strange, with occasional commandments to get drunk and read at the dinner table. Which, now that I think of it, sounds strangely like fandom.

(Also, in my experience, the rabbis won't yell at you, but they might get rumbly when they can't find their glasses.)

Nicole, go you, with the not smoking!

{{sj}} Take care of yourself, sweets.