I dropped my hairbrush in the toilet last week. Clean water and all that but still...

Here I am, heavier than I've ever been...not particularly bothered by that on my own terms but to show the hugeness of myself to another person. Um. Uh.

Beej, if you're okay with it for YOU, that's more than half the battle right there. And he's already asked you for a date so he obviously likes what he's seen so far. Don't let it stand in the way. Bodies change.

Thanks to everyone for the quitting smoking support. I just had a momentary freak-out about the whole situation and ransacked my car trying to find just ONE SINGLE FUCKING CIGARETTE!!

The good - I found a whole un-opened pack under the passenger seat.

The bad - I found a whole un-opened pack under the passenger seat.

I still have an hour or so before bed so I think I'll destroy all but maybe five of the cigarettes. Eeek!

Better yet, keep the 5 in the car.

MG, that cut n' color are so cute! You look great.

I still have an hour or so before bed so I think I'll destroy all but maybe five of the cigarettes. Eeek!

Suzi, I really like the new haircut. It's much more flattering and the color is good for you.

Nicole, good luck with the quitting, but don't be a Charlie. Get rid of the whole pack.

Thanks Sail and Erin...I feel lighter getting rid of that extra bulk of hair. Now I just have to get used to passing a mirror and having the different color jump out at me.

Nicole - you can do it!!!

Suzi, that is an EXCELLENT cut and color for you!!! What a hottie you are!

• blush* Steph.

I hesitated to post that "before" pic, cause I look like ass, but then again, that was kinda the point. This feels sassier.

Thanks to the wonder of batteries

I say this quite often...

Suzi - LOVE the cut and color!!

but don't be a Charlie. Get rid of the whole pack.

Pfft. It's been hard enough breaking (10 so far) cigs into tiny little bits.

MG-SUCH a pretty cut and color for you. Very flattering to the shape of your face.

Nicole, you can DO it. Hard 'relief' vibes coming your way. And thanks for the body support. You are right. It isn't like he's never seen me before. And seriously, I'm okay with where I am now. So, I suppose, having someone else be okay with it too is a relief.

I guess...the real issue for me is not so much the heavy as it is the nekkid. I'm sooooo of two minds. Scratching the carpet and mewing...versus not wanting to get caught up in a physical relationship at the moment.

This feels sassier.

It is definitely sassier! You look great.