I'm writing in word so that I can ramble but not regret emailing or calling. I still have 2 more times to see him, and then it'll be over. I wish I knew whether it truly was the right thing to do. I'm so confused now I don't know. But I think some space to reassess will be good for both of us. It's been the healthiest relationship I've ever had, but I want more out of life than he is currently prepared to give me, and I'm not sure he'll ever get there. I know I don't really post a lot here, so I'm sorry to sort of dump on the board.
I fell down and got confused. Willow fixed me. She's gay.
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d - Dec 28, 2005 4:09:31 am PST #1845 of 10001
It's nice to see some brave pretenders trying to make it interesting.
Nora Deirdre - Dec 28, 2005 4:11:30 am PST #1846 of 10001
I’m responsible for my own happiness? I can’t even be responsible for my own breakfast! (Bojack Horseman)
d, this is what the board is for, so don't worry.
I think you are right, and space is good. And this:
I want more out of life than he is currently prepared to give me, and I'm not sure he'll ever get there.
Is a big thing, and a very real issue. With some time and space, things will be clearer.
SuziQ - Dec 28, 2005 4:37:59 am PST #1847 of 10001
Back tattoos of the mother is that you are absolutely right - Ame
I want more out of life than he is currently prepared to give me, and I'm not sure he'll ever get there.
This is huge. When you compromise on this, you can end up compromising yourself.
juliana - Dec 28, 2005 4:41:28 am PST #1848 of 10001
I’d be lying if I didn’t say that I miss them all tonight…
d, I'm sorry.
Trudy Booth - Dec 28, 2005 4:56:08 am PST #1849 of 10001
Greece's financial crisis threatens to take down all of Western civilization - a civilization they themselves founded. A rather tragic irony - which is something they also invented. - Jon Stewart
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d - Dec 28, 2005 5:03:48 am PST #1850 of 10001
It's nice to see some brave pretenders trying to make it interesting.
Heh. Snuggled by Super Porny Pants! Wahoo!
Grief is so weird. Sometimes I'll sob, and then I'll seem to be ok, and then I'll cry, and then I'll sob for like 5 seconds.... Lather, rinse, repeat. Ugh.
WindSparrow - Dec 28, 2005 5:03:57 am PST #1851 of 10001
Love is stronger than death and harder than sorrow. Those who practice it are fierce like the light of stars traveling eons to pierce the night.
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gronk.
may go back to bed.
d - Dec 28, 2005 5:39:43 am PST #1852 of 10001
It's nice to see some brave pretenders trying to make it interesting.
Thanks guys. I think you helped get me through this morning's bad patch.
beth b - Dec 28, 2005 6:02:16 am PST #1853 of 10001
oh joy! Oh Rapture ! I have a brain!
{{d}}
Nora Deirdre - Dec 28, 2005 6:03:02 am PST #1854 of 10001
I’m responsible for my own happiness? I can’t even be responsible for my own breakfast! (Bojack Horseman)
we'll be here, d, for any upcoming rough patches.