'Hell Bound'
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risque (and frisque), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
I don't wanna go.
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hell, I got nothin'. Except love and hugs and the promise that one day the pain will be blunted. It's not ever going to go away, but you will get to the point where you can function without wanting to cry and you think of your grandpa with an easy smile.
Aims, the situation sucks all around, but go. I've managed to avoid a few such trips, and while it was what I desperately wanted to do at the time, I really regretted it -- and I've also gone on some, and ended up remembering it as very precious time spent.
All my love is with your whole family.
Thanks guys.
I know in the long run I'll be happy I went. But right now, well, my grandparents dying was NEVER AN OPTION. And now, it is. And it pisses me off.
I'm a total cow. I've been luckier than most to have had my grampa for 31 years. But dammit, I'm NOT READY.
Aw, hon. I have no grands left, and it's still NOT AN OPTION. I so completely get you.
I don't think you're ever ready, when it's someone you love.
And echoing Betsy's assessment of brenda's brilliance. This especially:
Just let people know what you're doing - stay a bit flexible in case you pick a bad moment, but don't try to make it a big discussion of can/can't, should/shouldn't.
{{{Aimee}}}
What they said.
{{Aimee}}
brenda's advice is very, very good. Keep yourself flexible, remember you don't have to do everything that everyone else does.
I'll keep you in my thoughts.
{{{{{Aims}}}}
{{Aimee}} So sorry you have to face this. Strength and love to you.
I don't wanna go.
God damn, why did this just hit now.
Your staying home won't keep him alive. And it hit just now because you've been working very hard at not freaking but now you will sit still for five hours on a damn plane.