I am a small, petty, horrible person.

A friend of mine just made her first sale to a major publishing house. I should be celebrating with her. Instead I'm this ball of petty anger and snippy envy. And I was planning to write tonight, what with being so close to the end of my story and missing my afternoon writing session with the interview, but I'm just not in a good state of mind for it right now.

The universe is conspiring against me getting over my Crush!Girl. Ever. I'm gonna have to ask her out again, and see if the rejection stands.

The situation is a lot more confusing than I can possibly explain right now. Or maybe ever. But persistence could work, and I'm gonna hafta try. Because... okay, I've said this before, and been wrong, so take this with a grain of salt, but: aside from the fact that her parents would FLIP OUT (and mine might too, to some extent) due to, um, diverging backgrounds, I could easily imagine myself spending the rest of my life with this girl. Children and teensy NYC apartment and/or suburban house that sucks out our souls and all.

Which, yes, considering I've known her, what, 3 months and haven't even officially dated her (yet) (though I think most outside authorities would say that yes, we are pretty damn close to dating, despite what we (she) say(s)), may be a little premature. But I'm young and stupid, I can do that. And there was a qualifying "could imagine" there.

Which, yes, considering I've known her, what, 3 months and haven't even officially dated her (yet) (though I think most outside authorities would say that yes, we are pretty damn close to dating, despite what we (she) say(s)), may be a little premature. But I'm young and stupid, I can do that. And there was a qualifying "could imagine" there.

Fair comment. But I'd suggest you don't lead with it. "Wanna get a coffee?" is statistically more likely to lead to a first date than "Hey, what are you doing next Saturday? I need a date for my wedding."

Re: Upthread talk on splenda. I'm diabetic, and while I've had my sugar under control for a long time due to excercise, I've only had a really steady weight loss since I started using splenda. I can't stand the taste of saccharin (Probably the most beneign of the artifical sweeters - evidence seems to be it does not cause bladder cancer as was once alleged.) Id don't like stevia either. I don't mind the taste of nutrasweet, but it gives me horrible headaches. So until I reach weight goal I'm sticking to splenda. I think the medical benefits strongly outweigh the risks in my case. Not making recommendations for anyone else.

But I'd suggest you don't lead with it. "Wanna get a coffee?" is statistically more likely to lead to a first date than "Hey, what are you doing next Saturday? I need a date for my wedding."

BT is wise.

I'm feeling a bit less EATEN ALIVE by the envy monster, but still....

Am good writer! Wanna sell novel and be author!

Which, yes, considering I've known her, what, 3 months and haven't even officially dated her (yet) (though I think most outside authorities would say that yes, we are pretty damn close to dating, despite what we (she) say(s)), may be a little premature. But I'm young and stupid, I can do that. And there was a qualifying "could imagine" there.

It sounds like it is going pretty well for a thing that isn't going. Maybe you could just keep not dating her and at some point, add in the smoochies, if you haven't already.

I'm feeling a bit less EATEN ALIVE by the envy monster, but still....

Go with it. Heck, write about it. Maybe it'll be something you can use in another book someday. That way you can let yourself feel the envy and still be doing something productive, so you don't beat yourself up later for not working on the WIP.

B.org is plate-of-shrimping my life again. I've stopped drinking any soda but Diet Dr. Pepper, so I asked Robert why the 6-pack of Coke he bought from the commissary was still untouched after weeks. He explained that US Coke just doesn't taste good to him anymore after getting used to Coke with sugar.

First time I had non-HFCS Coke was in England, and I thought the difference in taste had to do with the "contains vegetable extracts" label on the can. What really disturbed me, though, was that European cans have precisely one swallow less in them than US cans.

Maybe you could just keep not dating her and at some point, add in the smoochies

This is how my husband and my relationship started. We not-dated for about a year. So there's that, Gris.

Gris, after smoochies have been smooched, you can even say, "We are not dating. Clearly," and then move in for another smooch.

Oh, Susan. I'm so sorry. I really feel for you. And your feelings are valid. A quick reminder: you are a good writer. I know this, because I have experienced it here, in your live journal, and with my own cover letters.

I really believe your time will come. In the meantime, can you try to look at this as a learning experience? I don't mean that in the sense that people normally mean it. But, can you look at it and watch the process this friend goes through and find things you would do the same/differently when it's your turn? Maybe if you can look at it partially that way it will ease some of the pain.

I have the day off today. Of course, that consists of laundry, homework, running errands, etc. But, at least I don't have to sit through any classes.

how did your class go last night, vw?

Mine went well- I was all class participation-y. Hopefully not to my detriment.