Oh, Gud. What a rotten situation for you. I wish I could do something to make it better.
Strong like an Amazon.
Tara ,'Storyteller'
Spike's Bitches 26: Damn right I'm impure!
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risque (and frisque), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
Steph L. - Sep 13, 2005 5:53:59 am PDT #2640 of 10001
I look more rad than Lutheranism
Nora Deirdre - Sep 13, 2005 5:56:02 am PDT #2641 of 10001
I’m responsible for my own happiness? I can’t even be responsible for my own breakfast! (Bojack Horseman)
Gud, I'm so sorry.
Gudanov - Sep 13, 2005 5:56:49 am PDT #2642 of 10001
Coding and Sleeping
I'm not sure how to fix the situation. It's hard for me to imagine what the fixed situation would be like and to be happy with it. That makes feel like it's all my fault, but I don't feel like I'm that bad a person and it just ugh, I dunno.
Volans - Sep 13, 2005 5:57:50 am PDT #2643 of 10001
move out and draw fire
(((Gud))) May the best thing for you and the kids be what happens. Much strength to you.
brenda m - Sep 13, 2005 6:00:34 am PDT #2644 of 10001
If you're going through hell/keep on going/don't slow down/keep your fear from showing/you might be gone/'fore the devil even knows you're there
Oh, Gud. I'm sorry.
Fred Pete - Sep 13, 2005 6:02:58 am PDT #2645 of 10001
Ann, that's a ferret.
((((Gud and family))))
Cashmere - Sep 13, 2005 6:05:42 am PDT #2646 of 10001
Now tagless for your comfort.
{{{Gud}}} That is such a bad position to be in. It sounds like you've been busting ass to try to make it work. Strength to you.
This morning I did it. It was a little heart-catching. He's so tiny and the bus is so big. I had to hand him up to the attendant, then she carried him to his carseat and buckled him in, and then waved his little fist at me through the window.
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This kills me.
beth b - Sep 13, 2005 6:07:56 am PDT #2647 of 10001
oh joy! Oh Rapture ! I have a brain!
{{Gud}} I'm very sorry
juliana - Sep 13, 2005 6:09:06 am PDT #2648 of 10001
I’d be lying if I didn’t say that I miss them all tonight…
{{{{{Gud}}}}}} May the best possible outcome occur.
JZ - Sep 13, 2005 6:13:16 am PDT #2649 of 10001
See? I gave everybody here an opportunity to tell me what a bad person I am and nobody did, because I fuckin' rule.
(((Gud))) You've been struggling with this for so long.
but I don't feel like I'm that bad a person
You're not. You've been trying, and bumping your head against various brick walls, for such a time, and it is totally amazing to me that through it all you've kept soldiering on, and in the midst of the unhappiness still been so devoted to your kids, so present for them and proud of them and delighting in them. Which is no substitute for a good, loving adult partnership, I know, but which is still damn near miraculous. I'm vibing hard for some resolution to all of it that brings you and your family some peace.
Words are just inadequate for the heart-twistiness of the long slow pain of it.