Aw, Steph. That just sucks.

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Friend (who has the unfortunate burden of sharing the same name with Crush!Boy!Who!Doesn't!Like!Me) wouldn't let me eat a whole gallon of ice cream, OR a whole pie. I told him he was no friend of mine.

???

Oh, noes. Is he gymtastic?

Then he relented and bought me pizza.

Was there at least some wine or beer with the pizza?

I still need some sort of pastry, though, and since I'm about to go get groceries, I will be eyeing the baked goods counter with the greed of a vulture.

I hope you find just the right comfort food, Teppy.

You probably don't want to hear this, but the only guys I ever leveled with, like crush!boy did with you, were the boys I really liked as humans, you know?

If a boy I wasn't interested in seemed to be liking me, I just ignored it and him, and avoided him when possible. I only ever brought it up the I'm-not-looking-thing if I cared about him.

I know this doesn't take the sting out of hearing he's not looking, but it's a far more likely scenario *than* that he finds you repellant in any way. To be fair though, I could *never* accept that reasoning for myself when boys I liked headed me off at the pass.

You are a beautiful woman. In addition to being beautiful, you are smart. You're funny. You like to have a good time. You have diverse interests. You're compassionate. You're thoughtful. I hope when the rejection demons take a breather, you can remember at least some of that.

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Still feel like complete unattractive worthless pathetic worm poop, but I've stopped crying. For now.

Can you hop on IM for a minute?

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Thank you, Cindy.

Friend (who has the unfortunate burden of sharing the same name with Crush!Boy!Who!Doesn't!Like!Me) wouldn't let me eat a whole gallon of ice cream, OR a whole pie. I told him he was no friend of mine.

???

Oh, noes. Is he gymtastic?

Hee. No -- it was one of those "Steph, for your own good, how about we split a pizza?", not a mean "No ice cream for you!" things. And we went to the bakery afterward so I could get something guaranteed to put me in a sugar coma, but the line was too long and he had to get to the airport to get his flight. So, no -- it wasn't a "You don't need ice cream" thing; it was more of a "You need real food in your stomach before all the sugar" thing.

Then he relented and bought me pizza.

Was there at least some wine or beer with the pizza?

I figured any alcohol would be a bad idea. And I already have a headache from crying for hours.

You probably don't want to hear this, but the only guys I ever leveled with, like crush!boy did with you, were the boys I really liked as humans, you know?

He was really very kind about it; make no mistake. I'm sure he likes me as a human, which is better than thinking I'm a cheap skank, but it would be nicer if he liked me as a girl-shaped human, you know?

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wrod.

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Can you hop on IM for a minute?

I'm trying, and iChat is fucking with me. Give me a second here....

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So, no -- it wasn't a "You don't need ice cream" thing; it was more of a "You need real food in your stomach before all the sugar" thing.

Okay. We like him again, then. The last thing you need is a belly ache.

I figured any alcohol would be a bad idea. And I already have a headache from crying for hours.

Oh sweetheart. I'm so sorry. Ugh.

it would be nicer if he liked me as a girl-shaped human, you know?

Oh, yeah. Can I hate him a little for you?

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Can someone remove my tongue? Apparently I can't say anything right today.

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it would be nicer if he liked me as a girl-shaped human, you know?

Oh, yeah. Can I hate him a little for you?

Hate him a lot. As much as you can muster up.

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He's just trying to spare you the pain of his impotence, Tep.

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