Wish I was closer to offer a shoulder for the sobbing Cass.

I seem to be too overworked, overtired, and numb most of the time to think about sobbing. I am looking forward to the kids getting back in school in a couple weeks and attempting to find something resembling a schedule in life.

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too overworked, overtired, and numb most of the time to think about sobbing.

I was and then (oh the gods mock me) my vacuum cleaner just broke and it was apparently the final last straw. I managed to shower because I was drenched in sweat and caked in crap from the vacuum. I've been feeling on the edge of this for weeks with stupid things making me feel sad for a split second. This was just the breaking point tonight. I was smashing the vacuum against the floor and sobbing. I took that as a sign that maybe something was wrong.

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Cass, sorry to hear that you were feeling blue.

I had visitors this weekend and I think I was feeling tired because I slept for a couple of hours on the couch tonight. The downside of that, of course, is that I'm not tired at all now. The Jays aren't playing tonight, so we've had three games on tv, and I'm watching Mariners v Tigers and seeing a couple of my favourite players (Suzuki, Shelton).

I was accomplishy today. I got to the optometrist and got fitted for new contacts (for the first time in, uh, 7-8 years, I guess). Now I need to pick out glasses and I'm going to have to recruit female assistance with the frames (since there have been subtle complaints about the last ones I got on my own). I also had more physio today on the achilles tendon that I injured last summer. With the ultrasound and the anti-inflammatories, it is feeling better and better. Once I get it rehabbed, I'm hoping to shed some weight.

Now just to get some progress made on my main project at work this week, then I can go off on vacation (and see the SFistas) with no pressing worries.

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Hugs to you Cass. Want to talk about it?

Now just to get some progress made on my main project at work this week, then I can go off on vacation (and see the SFistas)

Yay!

I suddenly feel like I got hit with a ton of bricks. I hope I'm not getting sick.

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Thanks, Perkins. I don't even know if I can talk or not. I mean, I was smashing a vacuum against the floor and then crying in the shower. I don't think it is my best day ever.

I was accomplishy today.

This is good.

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Hi, Deena! Been wondering about you.

Cass, the vacuum was insolent to you. It had it coming. I wouldn't blame you if you went back to it and ripped its guts out, and screamed epithets questioning the morals of its parents.

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I don't think it is my best day ever.

Nope, doesn't sound like it. You made it through though, and here you are where you can get some support if you need it from folks who care about you and think you are terrific. Hang in there.

This is good.

Thanks. Yes, it is. I do feel like I'm a little undercoping, but I am getting some things done, and not too far behind. I just have to plug away, a couple of pieces at a time, and I'll be alright.

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Woohoo! I just got my shipping notification for my first Black Alchemy purchase.

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Yes, it is. I do feel like I'm a little undercoping, but I am getting some things done, and not too far behind. I just have to plug away, a couple of pieces at a time, and I'll be alright.

Another excellent lesson in adult life skills. When you're buried, just keep chipping away instead of throwing up your hands in despair. It gets manageable.

JSw, Emmett sends his regards from San Francisco and admires your knightly ways.

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the vacuum was insolent to you. It had it coming. I wouldn't blame you if you went back to it and ripped its guts out, and screamed epithets questioning the morals of its parents.

Oh thank you, Andi. Bless you. That was the first time I have smiled tonight. Laughed even. It is sort of already gutted though I tried to jam most of the parts back.

It's a really old house (1928) and on a tiny hill. There is a wood floor under the carpet too, which is "floating" in the front of the house - if that is the right term. Smashing a bagless vacuum on the living room floor is really really loud. Also shook a few unbreakables off of the bookcases.

I do feel like I'm a little undercoping

What's this like? Would you like a vacuum?

I am much calmer now. I made some pasta for dinner so I have eaten. I am already going in late to work tomorrow because we are electing a mayor. Again. So I can sleep in an hour if I need to.

There might also have been an epiphany whilst sobbing in the shower which made it all make a little more sense. Not that assault on a vacuum is sense-making but I could see how I got there.

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