Bypass surgery for my FiL, Ms. Havisham's dad, was a success! He has gotten his knitting back and already working on his next project in the hospital. Ms H and I will probably fly back and forth on and off for the next month to Maine to help with his transition, but thanks for all the 'ma and I release most of back into the wild...

Well, except that it feels like Major Life Choices shouldn't be "ahas!" They should involve pro/con lists, deep thought, prayer and meditation if one is so inclined, and generally take days or weeks to accomplish.

Heh. Oops. All my major life choices have been aha!'s.

The only reason we made pro and con lists for the house buying is because that's Tom's thing.

and yay CaBil family!

I think I've had too much coffee today. Some days it just hits me strange, and I get hyper...or kind of beyond hyper. It's causing my brain to go into hyperdrive, and my thoughts are all over the place. I'm shaking and almost in tears, because I feel inadequate to be doing my job, which is completely ridiculous. But, it just doesn't feel ridiculous. Ugh.

I think I've had too much coffee today. Some days it just hits me strange, and I get hyper...or kind of beyond hyper. It's causing my brain to go into hyperdrive, and my thoughts are all over the place. I'm almost in tears, because I feel inadequate to be doing my job, which is completely ridiculous. But, it just doesn't feel ridiculous. Ugh.

Dude, I know that place well. I'm sorry. Hope you can get a chance to breathe and relax out of the cycle.

Lots of Major Life Choices are "ahas!" Sometimes you just KNOW.

Teppy is wise.

And hot. IJS.

((vw))

Lilty, I got your message and backflung.

You probably did all that, just below thw surface. IT's hard to follow a concious decision-making protocol when you don't actually know what the problem is, after all. When the solution clicks into place at the same time you figure out the problem, you must have been working on it somehow.

That makes sense--and now that I think about it, the writing decision has been brewing for awhile, at least since a very smart agent suggested in a Q&A session several months ago that I consider historical women's fiction. I resisted the idea, because to me "women's fiction" suggests either chick lit or, on the opposite end of the spectrum, self-consciously literary stories about women's life stages where nothing much actually happens, not the Girls' Own Adventure Stories I naturally seem to write. But I suppose on some subconscious level I was thinking, "What if I can write romantic stories without them being romances per se?" and it all came to a head when I realized the wip is likely to be 25-50K words too long, and that if I follow the romance rules I have to leave out or gloss over too much that matters to me.

But still. While I can't deny the existence of things like epiphanies or love at first sight (I knew the day I met DH that I'd marry him), my inner Vulcan still frowns and tsk-tsks over how illogical they are.

(((VW)))

I hope you feel better soon, and know that you are MORE than good enough to do your job. You are great.

CaBil, that's great news! And I don't know what part of Maine you are going to be back and forth between, but if there's anything I can do(Barring, alas, a couch, because it's apparently being sold posthaste) please ler me know!

Skipping ahead to say Hello All, thanks for all the B-Day wishes! I had a pretty darn good day, wandering around the San Diego County Fair with Mom, nowhere near a computer the whole livelong day...

Therefore, I'm going back to catch up on a few hundred posts each in Bitches and Natter. See you again in a while!