Shit like why was I completely incapable of not clicking on the fic that led to the "dubious consenticles" tag on AO3? (For the record, the fics turned out to be, by and large, much fluffier than one might expect. Should one have expectations regarding fic tagged "dubious consenticles," that is.)

What's up with my deep love of problematic things like dubcon and noncon?

Inappropriate reading material at a young age. I blame/credit V.C. Andrews.

What's up with my deep love of problematic things like dubcon and noncon?

Working through your reaction to rape culture through fic?

Inappropriate reading material at a young age. I blame/credit V.C. Andrews.

Or Lace and Lace II. And yet? Not so much into the incest fic with a handful of exceptions, such as Hansel and Gretel Witch Hunters.

dubious consenticles

Best. Tag. Ever.

Clearly, there needs to be dubious consenticles + metal arm somehow. Hydra at one point inserted a trigger that would make the arm's fingers go all octopus-y in certain situations, and it gets accidentally triggered during a sex pollen situation?

Clearly, there needs to be dubious consenticles + metal arm somehow. Hydra at one point inserted a trigger that would make the arm's fingers go all octopus-y in certain situations, and it gets accidentally triggered during a sex pollen situation?

Bonus points if Bucky at any point says, "Have you every really looked at your hand? I mean, really looked at it?"

I am curious about my personal choices of both reading and writing less femslash than I feel I "should."

I think the main reason is I still need the mental distance between reactions I'm familiar with in a female body and the reactions I've experienced producing on a male body. That, and a lack of well-written femslash that appeals to my fantasy preferences.

Working through your reaction to rape culture through fic?

That too. And I like dub-con and non-con for very different reasons. I like my dub-con, generally, to be either cracky (sex pollen) or a total mindfuck, where I'm all about non-con that is one-time rather than systematic abuse, and is also effectively about the survivor and their reaction, which is why only a small subset of Trash Party stuff works for me.

What's up with my deep love of problematic things like dubcon and noncon?

Working through your reaction to rape culture through fic?

Yes.

I think the main reason is I still need the mental distance between reactions I'm familiar with in a female body and the reactions I've experienced producing on a male body. That, and a lack of well-written femslash that appeals to my fantasy preferences.

When it comes to actual porn, I will watch gay porn for the production values, but girl-on-girl for women, by women, that's where my happy place is, if I have a happy place with regards to porn.

Most of the femslash I find fails to be explicit enough. It's all fluffy and twee. Hell, most of the het in pairings I read winds up being rated mature for fade to black, which is NOT RIGHT AND PROPER, SHEESH.

effectively about the survivor and their reaction

Ultimately, 90% of my interest. Aftermath, and onward. Process, adapatation, accomodation, resistance, acquiescence. These are things that intrigue and absorb me, and why my tastes tend to the very dark, instead of fluff and crack.