I'm home. I'm exhausted and in tears again, but I did it. We (my parents, therapist and I) decided that the iPod is still on. I spent much of the Mountain Tales class saying "lalalalalalalalalalalalalalala" to myself while the class discussed the masculinity (sp?) of the rape. I spoke to the prof after class about my late assignments. She understands that I was not prepared for the graphic nature of the class and is cutting me some slack. She told me to get the stuff that's behind to her when I can and to try to stay caught up on the other stuff first. Oh, and I'm *definitely* not watching a horror movie. She's going to let me watch a comedy instead.

Thanks so much everyone for the thoughts and encouragement.

vw, that's great. Not the being so upset part, but the perservering through it, and choosing to talk to your prof, and get everything ironed out as to how you move forward.

I'm so proud of you. Two iPods, says I.

We're gonna be a two iPod household. Is that good enough? ;)

I'm not sure of the exact date when they changed, but sometime in the past couple of years, Subaru decided that they'd rather be making light trucks with great emissions ratings than big cars with lousy emissions ratings, and so new Forresters are currently being built on truck frames, making them real SUVs, instead of big boxy station wagons. (Because I'm nowhere near being in the market for a car, I haven't looked into exactly how this has affected the safety/mileage ratings, but if I were buying a car, I'd be looking at used Forresters rather than new ones.)

Skipping to the end to say that I have a 2004 Forester that I love madly.

t weeping quietly in the corner

This day. I cannot bear this day. I've been stressed out on work for months, and I had the brilliant plan to add home buying into the plan. I have heard nothing, nothing about our offer all day long now. I am in tears and can't work. I am a moron and obviously not emotionally stable enough to buy a house.

I'm so disappointed in myself right now I want to hurt something. Punch a wall or window or bite my tongue in two.

so new Forresters are currently being built on truck frames, making them real SUVs, instead of big boxy station wagons.

From my reading, I thought the Forrester is still being built on the car frame. It's the other one that's being built on the truck frame.

Nora, None of those for you young miss. {{{{}}}}

ND, housebuying IS inherently emotional.

On the way to closing on our first house, my husband had to stop the car so he could throw up. Seriously. This is deep painful stuff.

Hey, Nora...want me to come get you and we can go for a disappointing cup of tea? Sounds like we're having similar emotional days...