Jesus indeed. I'm glad I didn't know about that when I was in labor or immediately thereafter, given how long Annabel was stuck in one spot.

(I find that I just can't write baby-in-jeopardy or sick baby stories post-Annabel, unless it's deep backstory. However, I'm almost wallowing in traumatic labor plots these days. Catharsis much?)

Susan, my sister could not - simply could not - understand why I couldn't bring myself to read Alice Hoffmann's At Risk. I was the mother of an eight year girl at the time, and several of our friends had died or were dying of AIDS.

It took a vitriolic, profanity-riddled explosion of rage to get her to stop assuming that I was not dissing her favourite author, and that there might just be a reason behind my complete inability to read that one.

BTW, I just posted an original meme for writers in my livejournal. I'll be interested to see what people post in their own.

I bring Annabel with me to my Monday writers group, though that may change now that she's getting squirmy and fussy about being held/left in her stroller for 1 1/2 hours. One member of the group does sf/magic realist stuff, and lately everything has a very strong political theme. His winter project was an environmental disaster story, your basic post-apocalyptic breakdown of society, with a long, lovingly drawn portrayal of a woman going through late pregnancy, labor, and her child's starvation because she herself was too close to starving to produce milk.

I hated that story, and having to read it week in and week out while holding my strong, healthy, well-fed baby that I deliberately and willingly brought into a scary and chancey world, because I still hold onto that hope from Pandora's Box.

(None of which is condemning the drabble and baby discussion above. It's an entirely different vibe than that story was, believe me.)

What great drabbles everyone is writing this week.

Sail, your drabble broke me in a good way. Go you!

I love yours, erika. The various meanings of holding are great.

Oooh, Clovis drabble! Great job, Jilli.

Your first drabble is so very sensual, Kristin.

Souls are freed on flaming pyres, and hers is long past due.

Great line, Connie.

Here is my drabble:

"I washed my hands and used antibacterial gel." Finally I’m holding my newborn nephew. He has one hand over his pacifier, determined not to let it fall out again; his other hand grabs at anything within reach. Soon he’ll scream for his bottle, but for now I enjoy quiet of the moment and the chance to study him. I watch as he moves his head trying to find the direction of his brother’s voice; the baby is grunting because he cannot yet control his head the way he wants to. I still can’t believe this perfect baby needs heart surgery.

to hold you

I was nineteen, and unafraid of the world. After all, it had you in it. You, much older, drove me where I wanted to go. I loved you, no doubt. Passionately, irrefutably, to spite the universe.

You squirmed, restless, as I held you too tight.

Twenty-nine, I am unafraid of myself. These days I drive, because I prefer it. I loosened my grip when I learned to live on my own. I love you, no less passionately. Now I stretch it out, languorous, like a summer twilight.

You lie content in my arms; I have learned to hold you right.

Oh Liese. I adore that.

I stretch it out, languorous, like a summer twilight.

This especially.

She cradles the heavy mug closer to her body, leaning forward to capture more chocolate-scented steam.

It's too hot to drink now, but just the right temperature for the heat to seep through to her always-cold fingers and loosen them of their just-slept stiffness.

She almost prefers this moment to actually drinking. Basking in the pocket of warmth, she's briefly able to look at the snow-covered landscape without resentment or fear. Her memories of being a small bundle in a bright snowsuit become more real than frostbite earned scraping ice from her windshield.

But it's chocolate. It's not for holding.

Bwahaha!

Oh! That's great, ita. Nothing like it.