BWAH! vw, your tag is killing me. I'm glad you were able to find the humor in that terrible situation.

Yeah. Later yesterday I decided to claim it and be proud (and fix the grammar :)).

I'm actually feeling a little better about it this morning. I'm gonna give it till next Wednesday for a few people I've contacted to get back to me. If I don't hear from them by then, then I'll start thinking about the next step. Whatever that step is, though, it can't cost $2,000-$4,000. I want to be true to myself, but not *that* true.

I was talking about it with my mom and dad last night (who were especially cool about the whole things and didn't ask for details that I clearly didn't feel comfortably sharing with them. Every once in a while dad would ask a clarity question, but never dug for further information. I really love that about them). They actually don't want me to use our family law firm anyway. Apparently, the last few times we've used them, mom and dad don't feel they've gotten their money's worth. So, they told me to hold out for someone else.

Also, they recommended that I talk to my creative writing professor and see if he might know of someone at the university that could help. So, I'm going to do that this morning.

I was in a bit of a panic yesterday about the whole thing. I was able to calm myself down, though, while talking with the lawyers. It hit me that these postings have probably been there for years...waiting a few days to hear back from people isn't gonna make or break the situation. It's gonna be ok. I'll figure out what to do. And I've got a great support system to get me through the whole thing, and that makes a huge difference.

I'm glad to hear you're feeling less panicked. Hang in there; we're here for you.

Just watched Alias. Still awake.

I thought maybe I'd be able to post and smoke a cigarette and go back to sleep, but I don't think so. It's really annoying, esp. as this morning is cold and wet and grey.

This week's early mornings, though, have brought back memories of the semester I spent in London, spring of 93. Diesel fumes, rain and daffodils.

I have Lush Mask of Magnaminty all over my face. I love the tight feeling you get from a mask, but I'm not sure about the scent of this one. It's a little bit sweet (scented) so it feels kind of like I just smeared a Shamrock Shake all over my face.

I am overdrawn by $157. I get an $82 paycheck today.

FUCK. Why can't I do simple math? And what can I sell to make some money?!

BLEARGH. Rawr.

Oh, grrr, Erin. I've so been there. Just makes you want to beat your head against a wall.

I've been doing a LOT better, so I'm just really pissed off at myself. I've got to sell some books today -- it's annoying.

Morning. I'm just hoping to get through the day today. Not that it appears to be difficult, but just that if I do, I've gotten through this week in one piece.

Condos in Cambridge- We probably won't end up in cambridge- I'm generally suspicious of anything in Cambridge that is less than 400K - but, my theory is, as long as we can swing monthly payments, and we will get our investment back (and hopefully a profit) when we decide to move, I'm not too hopped up about paying 250-350K for condo/apartment. We're paying outrageous rent right now, (compared to most markets) and we got nothing to show for it. We don't have kids, we aren't planning on kids, commute and location (and character of the building) are important.

I'm hoping to get something decent in a fixer-upper area of Somerville, and sell at a tidy profit if the T ends up going out in that area.

Anyway. Who knows. Just babbling. Tired.

Nora, your reasoning certainly sounds good to me.

Also, gronk. I've got to spend the day training women on Provencal Lavender, and why it's so good they should be able to convince people to pay ungodly amounts for it. Good times.

I'm hoping to get something decent in a fixer-upper area of Somerville, and sell at a tidy profit if the T ends up going out in that area.

Word of warning - they've been promising to extend the blue line out to Lynn (or Salem) for DECADES now, and still nothing concrete is forthcoming (and then there's the North/South connector, and actually having the Silver line be, well a line, as opposed to buses), so I wouldn't expect anything too soon in the T expansion department.

Salem is inconvient, but the commuter rail is only a half hour into North Station - I've had longer rides on the Red Line. I know there also used to be a commuter ferry, but I haven't noticed anything about in yonks, so it may be dead. The REAL bear about Salem is driving in or out of it. Just DAMNED inconvenient whichever way you come at it.