Not on my TV they're not! It's annoying.

Tep, I think I managed to nip those munchies in the bud. Took the prednisone as soon as I got to work and bought myself lunch. A grilled cheese on whole wheat and chicken noodle soup. Filled me right up. No munchies right now, either. Keeping my fingers crossed (I've got cookies in the cupboard and I'm PMSing. Fear me.)

You're both right kids -- stop squabbling.

They're showing The LA at 8, and in the 9 o'clock slot, The Rainy Day Women.

Teppy, did you get my email, and perhaps, more importantly, did you *get* my email?

Heh. Yes to both, sweetie. I really am a slacker about replyling to e-mail, but today I was legitimately slammed at work (in fact, I was there until 6:30), and then I came home and read comics for a couple of hours to chill out. But I *did* get it, and it made me snicker loudly, which confused my co-workers. (You'd think by now they'd be used to me laughing at my computer.)

I ought to do the dishes and/or take a bath, but I think I'm going to crawl into bed early, as my PMS is no longer P, and I have the cramps.

Worship me, love me, dance with me as I celebrate my new job. Yay! It's only part time but it pays well enough to suit my needs and it gives me full benefits as well.

yeeha

WOO HOO Thomash!!!

I'm feeling really frustrated with myself right now. I feel like there's almost no value in all the times I've been tempted to worry or feel guilty over something and chosen not to, because I'm just going to slip up like I did here the day before yesterday, and all people will see or remember is "Susan who always worries and beats herself up with guilt." Or I'll do something like when I just lost my temper in Literary a little while ago. Since of course no one sees all the times I see something I'd like to lash out at, but take a deep breath and say, "It's not worth it, and it's probably not even about you or intended the way you took it," I'm still just a person with a hairtrigger temper and a chip on my shoulder.

Obviously working on this stuff isn't all about the impression I make on others. But OTOH, a big part of my motivation is that I do want to learn to play better with others. I want to be a good friend. I want to be helpful. I want to receive criticism graciously and give it tactfully, when criticism is appropriate. I want to deal with all stressful situations smoothly and capably, but especially public ones. So I'm frustrated with myself that all it takes is a bit of PMS or a stressful day to unravel my carefully constructed new self-awareness and self-control.

Yaaaay, Thomash! And I may not have announced your new tag yet, so: Thomash has a new tag:

Woohoo, Thomash!

My dear Susan! We who beat ourselves up over not being where we want to be are leaps ahead of those that have no objective to work on their shortcomings. Introspection is not a whole lot of fun. I have so much respect for what you are trying to achieve. Working on your career, your marriage, your personal being, and your family all at the same time is a huge challenge. I know you are up to this challenge.