But I feel like I'm shaking inside all the time, and the thought of walking away fills me with joy. (Then fear because, you know, no money.)
Leave. Leave leave leave. When it gets like this, it's time to move on. (Of course, you may end up leaving for a job with a company that turns out to have its financial head up its ass, requiring them to downsize you after only 10 months, leading to almost 2 years of soul-crushing unemployment, but in the end, you'll still be happy you left. Er, hypothetically speaking.)
Jessica! Did you get a Solstice card from me? (I'm trying to make sure the Storm of 2004, as it's been dubbed, didn't make any of my cards disappear.)
Shiny Trees, YAY! (AKA the official winter holiday.)
Ohhh. I found a job. Shiny, shiny job. Portland Concert Association's Great Performances. Development Assistant. It would give me a start with some grant writing, and I'd be working in an enviroment I'd LOVE LOVE LOVE.
Wants it, me does.
Apply, Lilty, apply. Nothing ventured, nothing... You know the drill.
All right. I'm filling in for the receptionist for the next hour, which means I need to be entertained, since I'm not doing any actual work. Dance, puppets, dance!
Does Muppet dance for Jessica.
It's really a shame none of you have seen this in person. It goes best to "Rhythm of the Night".
Now that's what I'm talkin' about.
Lilty, sometimes things don't work out, there's no shame in that.
And, this place hired you with little to no management experience, so why shouldn't someone else, now that you have a little more?
I had a similar job in the summer of 2001 (May-October). It was the highest level and pay I'd had, but I was sick, sick, and miserable there. I felt like I was there for 5 years, instead of 5 months. I took a job that was a killer pay reduction, but the effect it had on my soul was so positive. I mean, that job sucked, too, for other reasons, but I didn't ever dread going into work.
Where I am now, is the job after that, and I was nervous indicating that I was only at the evil job for 5 months, but no one really asked about it.
Yo uhave to do what you need to do for your mental health. I don't think it makes you a quitter, and I don't think others (i.e., hiring managers) will either.
