My goodness, Sean! What are you doing up so early?!

Timelies everyone! I've been reading the board the last several days, but not really posting. Of course, that means now I can't remember what I wanted to respond to. Silly me. Hugs all around!

I am up early because I have not slept. And now I have enough to do today that I think I should just stay up.

I've been up since 3:30 board time, but haven't posted. Fed the boy and he's currently interested in watching Elmo's World, so I'm catching up on stuff.

toast & tea

I did post this morning in Natter.

And now I have enough to do today that I think I should just stay up.

I've done that before.

And now it's diaper changing time. How exciting is my life???

Good morning Sean and vw! (edit - and Cashmere! who posted while I was posting and is now living the glamorous life of diapers)

When I've been away from the computer for a few days and come back and skim, I always know I'm getting near to the end of the posting day (i.e., Late Night on the Left Coast) because the Bitches start up Literati.

Morning. Am hung over. On 5 beers between the hours of 7 and 10pm. I think my body is trying to tell me something.

Back at work. Oh, joy.

Annabel is pretty awesome.

I am now consumed with fear that the version of Anne of Green Gables I sent to Tom's niece for Xmas was an abridged version. I didn't even think to check. What is it with people, screwing around with that book???

Hey Raquel!

Diaper is changed and he's back to watching Elmo. I'm doing some online bill paying. The glamour just keeps on coming.

It's soggy and grey here today. I have a feeling our street is going to flood. We're in a section of town that is notorious for flooded basements but we're spared because we have a relatively new house (new here is 20 years old). Our sump pump is working overtime, though.

I just left my therapist and my shrink voice mails about this whole insurance not covering my current therapist thing. I talked to four people at the insurance company last week, and they all told me that BCBS won't cover my therapist. But, I can appeal the decision. Although, I was told by two of the people that appealing in this situation is not likely going to end up with the coverage that I'm wanting. See, my therapist is a trainee, and according to BCBS, she's not qualified to be treating me. They're not likely to change that decision. But, I left messages for my treaters anyway. Letters must be written to the appeals department. Then it will take about 30 days for a decision.

So, I'm stuck in a holding pattern for 30 days. Do we start looking for another option? Do we wait? Who pays for my appointments during the 30 days? It's all a little bit too much for my brain to handle right now.

Depends on how much you like your therapist, I guess. I was fairly lucky in that when I went for counseling I made my choice solely based on finding a therapist who my insurance would cover (and who was within driving distance) and I had a really good relationship with her from the start.

Maybe your therapist herself can recommend another provider, for at least the time until the insurance gets sorted out?

I do like her, Raquel. And there's a little bit of history here that you're probably missing. I'll try to sum it up so you understand why I'm going to this trouble.

This is my third therapist in a year. I'd rather not make it four. Last May my therapist of two years (who I loved and worked really well with) went on maternity leave. I worked with a covering therapist for three months till R was supposed to come back. About the time that R was supposed to come back, she called me to let me know that her husband had been transferred to DC, so she wouldn't be able to continue to work with me. I didn't get too worried, 'cause I thought I could stay with the covering therapist. Well, that wasn't to be. M's responsibilities with the hospital were changing, and she was going to have less time to devote to one-on-one therapy. Plus, she was also pregnant. The team didn't feel it would be fair to me to stay with M. So, they had me start working with E in September. It was a really rough start, but we were finally just getting in a groove over the last month or so.

December 18 I found out that my health insurance would be changing from Tufts to BCBS as of January 1. I didn't get too concerned, because the hospital with all my treaters takes BCBS. Except, when I casually mentioned the switch to my therapist, she was all, "That's gonna be a problem. They won't cover me because I'm a trainee."

It would be really bad if I had to switch therapists at this time. I'm not doing very well to begin with, and chances are really good that if I had to do a switch, I'd end up in the hospital again. Also, I'm in a very specific kind of therapy (DBT - Dialectical Behavior Therapy). There are only a certain number of DBT therapists at the hospital, and as far as I know, no one else is taking on new clients right now...or at least that was the case in September. If no one at the hospital can take me, my best bet is at the main psychiatric hospital, which is in the suburbs. There's just not a lot of good options.